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2009-11-13T23:28:00.002+08:00

Haha..have not blogged for a long time... I will blog more often after A's :) Hmm... Just feeling happy! hahahaaaaaaaa... This is very random.

Naomi just sent me soooo many Lady Ga Ga songs which I said I didn't like. But I was still ok with her sending since she wanted to and I want to be exposed to more genres as well. And guess what? I fell in love with Lady Ga Ga songs. Hahaha... The tune, percussion effects and music rocks. It's just the lyrics la. Rather indecent, ha ha. (Just ignore them and enjoy the music!) My personal favourites are Paparazzi, Brown Eyes and Eh Eh (Nothing else I can say). They have attractive tunes/meanings. Hmm okayyy that's all, I shall go and read my econs bedtime story until it bores me to sleep. :)

Song of the moment: Lifesong.

2009-09-17T19:15:00.003+08:00

Today is the first day of prelims. ): But it was a very happening day. Let me just blog about everything and I'd enjoy reading it back again in future. (:

Hmm. It was during the break between GP papers and bio paper 2. Aver asked me "Do you know what happened to Joanne?" I was shocked...because I didn't know and it sounded quite serious. And I felt quite bad cuz she's one of my best friends. And then later I found out from Joanne that she went toilet twice just to feel better during GP paper cuz she felt totally burnt out and was hyperventilating all the way. She'd never felt this way before ever. Weird huh?

It's quite shocking for me cuz knowing Joanne, she's the kind who's happy-go-lucky and always smiling.. It really isn't like her to look so scared and nervous. Which was what she looked like when she told me about it. She said when she stopped talking to me to concentrate on studying, her mind would keep running off to the thoughts that tell her she cannot make it and she'll get so stressed over the exam. Yeah, we were studying together..and we just tested each other on some questions cos Joanne couldn't concentrate on studying alone without talking because of those frightening thoughts.

Then we decided we couldn't absorb anything anymore and we had 40min left before bio paper. So we went to the container classrooms there to pray and worship. It's quite funny cos we walked past some muslims girls who were praying...In a muslim prayer corner near the container classrooms. Anyway. The time we spent with God was great... I prayed for her and we sang 'You are my all in all'. She was crying and crying... I shared with her from a devotional I read that God made us in such a way that each time after we cry, we feel better. (: Wow. After the time with God, she shared with me that she was too focused on studying for her own gain and kinda forgot about giving the glory to God. I'm happy for her. What a receptive person! She gets revelation in just that short 20min. (: God came through for her during bio paper. She was much calmer and she even told me that she thought the paper was do-able when I thought it was hard! HAHA. I'm so glad this is just prelims...

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up I'll be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus
Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

I realise I haven't been doing blogthings for a long time... In the mood for that now (:

You Should Teach First Grade

You are encouraging and easygoing. You don't mind answering the same questions from kids over and over.
You are also very detail oriented. You're a stickler for proper punctuation and grammar.

While you run a tight ship, you still know how to have fun with learning.
You are good at motivating and inspiring others, especially kids!

What Grade Should You Teach?

What Your Handbag Says About You

You tend to be relaxed throughout the day. You are naturally at peace.

You are a low maintenance person. You can adapt to a variety of situations.

You are open and comfortable with who you are. You don't hide anything.

You are practical and down to earth. You tend to be a rather reserved and quiet person.

You are a very unique and special person. There's no one else who is anything like you.

http://blogthings.com/whatdoesyourhandbagsayaboutyouquiz/">What Does Your Handbag Say About You?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

You Think Emotionally

Your brain works best when you are able to really get passionate about something.
You like to feel connected to whatever project you are working on. You crave meaning.

You work to bring people together, and you're always thinking of a way to compromise.
You believe that the only way to get things done is to have everyone in harmony.

http://blogthings.com/howdoyouthinkquiz/">How Do You Think?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy
You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on
You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time.
Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need variety!
Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

http://blogthings.com/areyouanextrovertedgirlorintrovertedgirlquiz/">Are You An Extroverted or Introverted Girl?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

Your Fragrance Profile

The best calming fragrance: vanilla
The best fragrance for everyday wear: orange
The best fragrance to boost your sex appeal: lavender
The best fragrance for energy: pine

What's" Your Fragrance Profile?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

Your Toes Should Be Pink

You love to dress girly and work your feminine charms, with a bit of an edge.

Your ideal guy: Is confident enough to get any girl he wants

Stay away from: Jerks who only see you as eye candy

http://blogthings.com/whatcolorshouldyourtoenailsbequiz/">What Color Should Your Toenails Be?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

But I don't like this toe colour! :[

You Should Be In Atomic Kitten

Cute and stylish - you're the perfect little pop package.
Oh, and you can sing a little too :-)

http://blogthings.com/whatgirlgroupshouldyoubeinquiz/">What Girl Group Should You Be In?

http://www.blogthings.com">The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

Your Soul Is Connected to the Fall

You are a somewhat sensitive soul with a tough exterior. You are street smart and wise about the world.
You have the heart of a poet, but you're not too eager to let anyone else see it.

You are very creative and deeply talented. You are still looking for the perfect outlet for your expression.
You embrace change and think the cycles of life are beautiful. You don't shrink away from the darker elements of life.

http://blogthings.com/whatseasonisyoursoulconnectedtoquiz/">What Season is Your Soul Connected To?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

Your Love is Based on Romance

You are a traditional romantic, and you can't help but be a sucker for romance.
A few great dates won't make you fall in love with someone... but they can't hurt!
You take love seriously, and you take it slow. You know you are destined for true love.
You have an ideal of how love should be - and you won't stop looking until you find it.

Why your love can last: You know what's important in building a relationship, and you don't take shortcuts in love.

Why your love can fail: Your expectations are very high... so high that it's hard to meet them.

http://blogthings.com/whatisyourlovebasedonquiz/">What Is Your Love Based On?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

Your Friendship Style is Philosophical

You take every friendship you have seriously, and you spend a lot of time analyzing your friends.
You've thought a lot about what it means to be a good friend, and you hold yourself to your standard.

In return, you expect your friends to be loyal, honest, and real. You're somewhat picky about who you're friends with.
Fighting with your friends bothers you more than most people. You can't stop replaying arguments over and over in your head.

You and an Empathetic Friend: Try to understand one another. You approach life very differently, but you're willing to listen to one another.

You and a Gregarious Friend: Are a better match than expected. You understand and appreciate your Gregarious Friend's energy.

You and an Independent Friend: Get along pretty well, but you can't help but think your Independent Friend needs to learn better manners!

You and another Philosophical Friend: Are friends for life. You can get lost in your intense, interesting conversations... and maybe even change the world together!

What's" Your Friendship Style?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

Very very true! :]

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Supportive

You are almost like a life coach for your best friends.
You give them help when they need it... but you also know when to give them a push.

People tend to rely on you for moral support and advice.
You've probably always been mature for your age, so this is a role that's you're comfortable with.

A friend like you is one of the rarest kinds.
You are both a good mentor and companion.

Your friends need you most when: They are confused or worried

You really can't be friends with: Someone who only wants to complain

Your friendship quote: "The only way to have a friend is to be one."

http://blogthings.com/whatmakesyouagoodfriendquiz/">What Makes You a Good Friend?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

Haha I like this ((:

You Are Fat

You are by no means fat, but you are like fat in that you can easily absorb what's around you.
You are easily influenced by both the good and bad people in your life. It's important for you to be around people you want to be like.

You are a comforting and calming force. Without your presence, people feel unsatisfied.
You sometimes have a reputation for being a bad influence, but you're not nearly as dangerous as you seem.

http://blogthings.com/areyouproteincarbsorfatquiz/">Are You Protein, Carbs, or Fat?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

2009-08-06T22:37:00.002+08:00

You don't need everyone to love you. Just a few people would do. In fact, if you have a family who loves you and a few good friends who are true, it is really enough. (: This viewpoint of Lin Xiang Ping in a variety show last night is really so true. (: When would we be content of the love we are getting? Perhaps only when God Himself shows it to us. He's all I need...

Leave all the bitterness behind. There is no time. There is only room for forgiveness and progress. Run forward with all you've got. There's no time or energy to lose thinking about things that don't matter in eternal view. Move on. GO! (:

All things fade with time except God. He's the Alpha and the Omega. Wow.. Just typing that inspires me.

In the fear of the Lord continue all day long, for surely there is a hereafter, and your hope will not be cut off. Proverbs 23...

2009-08-03T00:13:00.003+08:00

Gosh I saw this picture and I was so amazed... Look at how much Hongrui has changed! This is what Heart of God Church does to a person. When he first came to church, he never smiled (pics on left perhaps a year ago) and now look at the transformation... The smile looks great! Living proof of what Jesus can do to someone. (: The picture alone praises God's name...

2009-07-28T16:54:00.003+08:00

Life is so..hectic... I can't stop to breathe. I can't stop to think. I can't stop even to daydream. My brain is fried by A levels. Hahaha... I wanna stop and have time for myself. Last night I was reading my Stormie Omartian book and my dad got so angry. He just screamed at me asking me why I wasn't reading any academic stuff. ... Do I need to be studying all the time? My brain has only so much capacity. I need to retain my sanity......

Ok. I'm alright.. (: Just needed to type it all out. Haha.. This is a random blogpost that I'm typing in school. I'm taking a break from studying for thur's Balance of Payments test. See? Studying again. I am not a mugger k... I just have to do it... (:

Let's talk about happy things.. I love choir. (: I love even that short time we had for dinner before choir prac ytd. I love it. The people there are just so funny and we click well. (: I love singing and worshipping with choir. I'm so glad I made the choice to join. (: Hmm... It's really a privilege to be singing alongside Pst Lia. I am going to study hard for thur's test so I can be guilt-free during prac. It is possible!

My headache's gone... Haha.. Feel like writing a song/poem. Random. Well, anything but study... (:

Hee. Btw ying loo and shan yan and le xuan are beside me now! I love them! School would be really terrible without these buddies! Let's do it together. Jiayou.

2009-07-11T23:12:00.002+08:00

Soundtrack: Stay Beautiful by Taylor Swift

You're beautiful
Every little piece, love
Don't you know
You're really gonna be someone (:

I'm so touched by the birthday present from Janice and Clarence (my bookstore heads). It's a book by Derek Prince titled Faith to Live By. So cool.. Haha I love all that they are doing in our lives... Bookstore is a family-ish ministry! (:

Haha, just saw a video of last year's Show Me What You've Got when Yassy and Roy sang and danced to the song Ice Kachang. It's superliciously funny!! I've got a sudden urge to watch the GXT production, Saving Private Benny (if I'm not wrong)...

I've got a date with Jasmine to practise math together every Sunday morning at 10.30am. Hope it works out..I'm bad at graphs haha.. Pastor preached no limitations today. Gonna apply it to my studies too. (:

I hope I keep having stuffs to update.. Need to keep this bloggie alive..

2009-07-07T23:32:00.003+08:00

Okay, I'm blogging randomly. Haha... I've been having dreams every night. Quite scary to think of it. I used to like dreaming in my sleep because it's fun to "watch" like a TV programme and so creative to put things in your life together in a random and funny way. But now I just have a kind of fear of nightmares. I started dreaming alot about my dad and bad things happening. So I cross my fingers for no dreams now. (: The best sleep. (:

I'm reading this book titled "Lord, I want to be whole" by Stormie Omartian that I bought from Generations bookstore. (: It's really powerful and a tool to helping people to control their emotions and submit them to God. So great to think that during these turbulent hormone-raging years, there's redemption for our emotions. (: Emotional healing. Wow. Not only can I apply it in my life, I can minister to people with the truths in the book in future. Good book to keep.

There's a part that I read that says we should keep away from TV programmes or books or material that are detrimental to us. For example, TV shows that leave us feeling depressed, disappointed, angry or afraid. What is not feeding us is damaging us. Rather, we should feed ourselves with positive material that leave us feeling faith. (: God says in the bible that we should fill our minds with whatever that is praiseworthy and of good report. (: This really spoke to me cause the 9pm show I've been watching had alot of people dying and people with bad motives and it was somehow not leaving positive feelings in me but had kind of a depressive after-effect. I wanna keep my eyes and my mind on good things. Not running away from reality, but keeping my emotions intact! Haha...

Funny how arty and creative side people have a lot of emotions to deal with. I'm thankful for Darlene Zschech's book "Extravagant Worship" and the new book I've got. Haven't finished both (2/3 of Darlene Zschech's and 1.5 chapters of Stormie Omartian's) but I'll finish them!! Can't wait to read and know more. (:

2009-05-10T22:55:00.002+08:00

Just wanna blog about a special fellowship time today! (: Though Mother's Day service was simply awesome with all the testimonies and performances added to usual service, the time I actually enjoyed the most was the last 30-45min or so spent. With Annlynn at Long John's! It had been a great day and our spirits and moods were sky-high... Annlynn had waited for me to end bookstore for like about 30min? (!) Then we went to eat together and I decided on Long John cos it's got supernice cheese! HAHA. We chatted on many stuffs...from the day's events to talking to leaders to even anime. So fun to talk lah... It's the very first time (I think) we ever spent time one to one and it was good. (:

2009-05-01T20:15:00.006+08:00

Sore throats and swine flus during 24 prayer relay

This week has been so eventful! God is always so faithful. Without Him, I will never be where I am. I know I need Him so much more through this week and I really couldn't have gotten by without His help. Thank God. At the same time, I couldn't have done it without men and women of God like Pastor Lia, Yong Hui, Daniel, Cheryl Chan, Joanne and Zhou Jie of course! Awesome...
The next exciting thingy: Mother's Day choir outing and my mum's coming!!! :D It will be so great man. I love choir. :) Lord please heal my sore throat completely before tomorrow's choir prac!! Hmm... I hope I don't have swine flu. :)

But still, I think I'm so pig lah. I slept everywhere I went today.. 1.5 hrs in church, 3 hrs at val's house, 0.5 hr on the bus home, 2plus more hrs at home. HAHA. I wonder if people starting to resemble pigs have contracted swine flu...

Haha...I will never forget today 12am. God's presence came during that prayer relay. And I totally just felt it myself at 1plus am! I think I learnt so so much this past week. From Pastor Lia too. She's so nice..I mean she just encourages people and it was wonderful for me. :)

After the 12-2am prayer relay, Zhou Jie joined my CG for supper. ZHU ZA TANG! It was quite filling, think 'cause we were all half-dead and have the appetite of a mouse.. Zhilin and I wasted about half of the food we ordered? Man... Although 3/7 of us felt like puking, we lasted... :) And on the way back, guess what! We sang! And yes, I sang with my disgusting sore throat..HAHA. Oh. And if anyone were to sing Alleluia in front of me or Zhou Jie, we would scream like crazy. Hahah... It's the ONLY song we've been hearing for the whole week, seriously..and in continuous repetition. You get the picture.

Haha... It was too exciting to sleep after we came back to church, so our CG slacked around the stage. :D We were debating whether to take cab home or slp in church. Haha. And I told Joanne about my sore throat. She's funny. She said how come I sing so low still can sore throat. Well true arh? I'm just super prone to it lah.. The sore throat virus likes me. :(

Oh. You must know this. I discovered a wonder-sweet! It's Huimin's intro - the GOLDEN THROAT LOZENGE. It's really effective you know! I'm sure it was the Holy Spirit who brought me to talk to Huimin about my sore throat, which led to me discovering the wonder-sweet, which led to me still having a decent enough voice to sing. Haha...

This morning we went to airport to send Carlo off to the Philippines...for THREE YEARS. The CG was having fun till the last part when we sent him off at the glass windows there. So sad. Three years man. If Nic is reading this, he'll cry. Every word we say about Carlo leaving makes him wanna cry..'cause they are best friends.. When Val said "Imagine, this is the last time we can look at him already. (through the glass)", Nic started crying alr. Woah, and the CG cried.. So good to cry together...It's like we share the same emotion (ethos). :) But well, Carlo's coming back! So don't be sad!

So... Here's a really long post to make up for my not blogging for so long. :)

2009-03-02T20:48:00.002+08:00

Songs that I think are nice.. ((:
The best praise song - I Live for Jesus by Delirious :D
The best worship song - Spirit Fall by CHC Band
The best secular song - I'm Yours by Jason Mraz
The innest secular song - Just Dance by Lady Gaga
The best oldie - The Closest Thing to Crazy by Katie Melua

Woohoo... ((:

2009-02-22T11:45:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone,

If you're from Heart of God Church, please help me take this survey! It's to improve our church bookstore. Thanks a billion! But if you're not, give this a skip. :)

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=BWXcP6aupqIOlghGbtBPJQ_3d_3d

2009-02-22T09:32:00.003+08:00

This morning I woke up feeling a tad out of place. Like.. oh man.. My life isn't right. It just isn't. There are so many things undone. And it's been weeks. I wish I could rewind to January again, when everything was at a comfortable pace for me.

I'm really hard-pressed on every side like what Pastor How said... Well maybe not on every side, but most sides..the very important sides.

Studies, which is a whole chunk of stuff already - tests, upcoming exams, HOMEWORK
Ministry and ministry training. Gotta do the stuff :))
Writing cards. I really do want to write cards for people but I don't find the time. Need to plan well enough.
Parents. I need to spend more time with them and get them to understand me. Haha..
Bible Reading Plan.
Take care of myself and get out of my illness cycle. I'm sick with like all the small illnesses these past weeks. I'm still having flu right now because of the weather.

Many things.. Maybe God is stretching my capacity. He's putting me responsible for many things at the same time so that I can grow. Death so that I can rely on Him.. Well, it's better than remaining stagnant and be comfortable at where I'm at right? Haha. A new viewpoint to look at.

I AM GOING TO CONQUER ALL THIS!!!!!!!!

Please encourage me if you read this..it's difficult. Haha. I've blogged to vent it all out. I'm gonna plan now. See ya around. :)

2009-02-12T16:24:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging in school now. Today was just one big supersian day! Hahah. Lessons till like 3pm and then PE at 3pm, we didn't even run or play games. They made us set up benches for tomorrow's Road Run! Hahah... Make use of manpower sia. Hahhs. Last year we did the same, so it's kinda like TJ tradition?

Lessons were super sleepy. Oh man. Ytd it was GP that I really knocked out. Today it was during bio that I felt drowsy. Haha I'm sorry Mr Peck and Mr Tan! They are two really nice teachers who make the effort to teach us well! Hmmm... Teacher's day I'll owe a lot of teachers apology for wanting to fall asleep during class. Haha.

I just can't wait to spend some time with God again. Yesterday was great. God's comfort just came and I felt like staying there with Him even longer. After spending time with God, it's hard to get to sleep. But I was too emotional to go do other stuff... like studying. =( There's a bio test tmr that I have to chiong for tonight. I pray that I will be able to study efficiently.

I'm blogging while waiting for Jon to reply my msn... Man, I can't can't wait to get the books. It'll be the first book on my reading list! (Too many books queuing up to be read...but I'm sorry I just don't have the time!) Now that I've got the answer from Jon, it's time to go off, start mugging, and leave school at... 5pm! Will be mugging with Jomain tonight. Pray for me to survive school! Hahaha...

2009-02-07T11:57:00.002+08:00

God is so good to us.

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow.

I thoroughly enjoy being with my CEG. :)) Haha. There are so many musical people in there man... Can you imagine, yesterday's popiah party at Jasmine's house (which is already very exciting), ended up becoming a song composition session. HAHA. Woah man! Peiffy had composed the melody and lyrics of two praise and worship songs while she was bored working at this ice cream shop. Then she shared it with me and Jasmine. Soon, we became one whole group trying to work out the intro of one of the songs, the different instrumental parts.

It all started with Gavin trying to figure out the chords for the song. Then Choong Kai came along with the percussion parts - drums and shaker. Woooaah. Then Jieru with her keyboard parts and me trying to fit a BV part in, and like, a random bass part that goes lightly "Borm. Borm. Borm, borm. ~~" Haha...got feeling...and inspiration. Doesn't it just sound exciting? Haha. And it's nice!! The intro sounds like Majesty by Planetshakers but is not exactly. Haha... I'm so amazed by Peiffy's visualisation of her song. She knows pretty well what she wants with it. :)) And we were 4D-ing that one day those songs will be in hoGc's first praise and worship album and that we would sing them for praise and worship! :D

The song's about telling the world to listen... to hear us... We are God's people rising up. :) Shan't reveal the exact lyrics yet! Haha. ANTICIPATE. :D

2009-02-03T16:21:00.002+08:00

Was just thinking.. Truly, child-like faith is really very important. If you look around, it's really the small kids that can be so real, that can have such faith. They're really very simple. But as we grow up, we're kind of contaminated by the world, polluted by other people/things that are in it, tempted by the things of this world...a thousand times over. It's so irritating to think of that. And how disgusting, the things that we could do if we purposed to do them. How scary, the feelings of inferiority we could have about ourselves. I'm so glad that Pastors always emphasized on being real. It's quite scary to think of someone living an alternate life outside of church. Real-life issues are really real. The truth is it takes time to change, to let go, to get over something/someone, but it is also true that it can be done.

Sometimes I can't stand the complexity of the world... Simplicity is so desirable, but so hard to achieve? Someone I know is really that simple and authentic. He's none other than Gavin, from PRSS. He's a real friend and he's just always so teachable, curious about things and... simple. Someone really commendable. I'm so glad that I know him. :) He's gonna do many great things for God in future!

Anyway, I'm just blogging all these thoughts in my school's computer hub... No one's around near me and I'm enjoying this quiet thinking time. :)

2009-02-01T22:27:00.003+08:00

Today D5 and D50 did some CNY visitation. It was awesome. :) The peeps went to Gavin's house and then mine and then Jieru's. After I came home from Jieru's house, my dad even commented that Jieru is a really good person because she's so cheerful. Haha. I enjoyed hearing that. Glad my parents are assured that I'm mixing with great company. I was even worried that my dad would be unhappy about the huge ratio of guys compared to girls. (5:1) The one girl was Jieru. Haha.. We also talked to Alvin and Yiwen on msn and had utmost fun/laughter fooling around with them. Yay! By the way, I'm proud to say my grandfather was a carpenter! Like Jesus! And Jieru said I may be related to Jesus. HAHA! I think we all are? :)

However. While the peeps liked the country decor of my house, I think Jieru's house was really cool. As in. We had all our fun there! Gavin, Godric, Choong Kai, Julian, John and my dear Peiffy. I enjoyed my time with all of them. We ate brownies, looked at some old old church photos from back in 2006, played piano, played guitar, played this really FUN and EXCITING typing word monster game...and I even did some of my homework (the most unfun part)! Peiffy just kept taking photos...she became Nicholas today. Haha. She especially likes to take me doing homework. And her disturbing me while I do. Haha... Wow, I really love mixing with these people man. It's quite a different thing from mixing with the whole group of D5 girls.

Learnt these songs on the guitar at Jieru's house today:
Sing About You
Here I Am

I want to learn how to play Majesty! The Delirious one. Haha. The Planetshakers one is currently my alarm.

Ho-ohh-ly
Ho-ohh-ly
Holy is the Lord.

2009-01-28T21:40:00.003+08:00

I miss church!

Haha! Like many people, I really can't wait for this Sat's combined service man! I feel like I haven't been to church for so long... Since last wed I think. Cos we breaked for chinese new year. I really miss the things there, the air, the building, and the people. Hahah. It's a whole package.. Hahhs. No wonder Peijun misses me so much too! Wahaha. At least I'll be going church tmr for CEG and friday for choir. Lol. I miss alot alot lahh... Do you feel what I feel now? Hahas...

I'm sleepy and wanting to watch the 9pm show now. Nights then!

2009-01-26T18:36:00.003+08:00

I just read this paragraph in an article on the Net and felt it's something I wanna blog about..

"As I work on ridding myself of all the negativity that has accumulated over the years, I am reminded of a sculptor at work. He chisels away at the excess stone in order to reveal the beauty known only to his mind's eye. I have a hard time visualizing the masterpiece buried within me and I often mistake excess stone for part of that masterpiece. The excess stone covering my fragile soul is much like the sculptor's stone - cold, hard and inhibiting. Lies, illusions, and unsurrendered pain are compressed together over time into the stone weighing down my soul much like rock is formed in the earth. As I grow weary and discouraged from chiseling away at this hard surface, I have to remind myself that I am worth the hard work, time and effort. I no longer shun the doubt and frustration I experience, but I don't let them overcome me either. I trust that I am perfectly and wonderfully made and I practise focusing on positive thoughts and learning to truly love and value myself."

The girl who wrote this is a christian as implicitly mentioned in the later part of the article. Isn't it great to know you are actually worth more than what you think you are? :)

2009-01-25T19:18:00.003+08:00

I didn't realise it but. I've been leaning on Him since last year Nov. And God is always so faithful... He brings you through stuff without you knowing it... Thanks be to Him! Glory to Him alone.

Learning to lean...

What Pastor How said is so true. When we step out of our comfort zones, put ourselves in difficult situations, we force ourselves to depend on God. It's really not by my might, but by His power already. There's only so much I can do or control, but God is in control of far more things than I can.

That book Extravagant Worship... I didn't know it'll be so difficult to find. Hope SKS bookstore replies my enquiry soon with a positive response. If not, I'll just get it from Tecman! Haha. Tecman rocks... It has the book while SKS doesn't. :P

D5 is a really cool CG. We can flow into worship so easily. Mu Ying was just playing a few worship songs and we were having a "sing-along" session at her house and then we just started worshipping and praying. Gonna breakthrough DEFINITELY.

School is.. not very fun. Hahaha... Homework homework. But people like Joanne, Ying Loo, Le Xuan, Felise, Grace, Shan Yan, Adeline etc brighten the boring days at school. If not for them... haha... I'll not like school at all! :x Oh, and my favourite place in school now is officially the library! It's quiet and nice to be in. With lots of magazines! Joanne is funny. I've been spending more time with her at school. I'm so glad she found her laptop back. :) Oh wellsss, I learnt my lesson, gonna pay attention in lecture and do tutorials ok! I'm a good girl this year. :)

I went out with Jomain just now. We flipped her liquid paper and my coin 2 times each to decide whether we would go shopping or go study. HAHA. Of course we wanted to shop and yes, the liquid paper and the coin agreed. She bought her SKINNY BLUE JEANS and bangle while I bought 2 lovely necklaces! I'm going to wear one to church this weekend. And Jomain, remember you promised to teach me how to play keyboard ah.

It feels weird to not have service this weekend due to CNY... And also, SKS and Tecman bookstores are closed for CNY. :(

Overall mood:
:))

2009-01-21T09:45:00.001+08:00

This is pretty amazing... :)

My Jesus, my Lord
You're the love of my life
Wherever You go
Wanna be by Your side
No longer I, but Christ living in me
Serving You for all eternity

My eyes set on You
In this race that I run
No longer my ways
Let Your will be done
Make me a servant
My heart's ever true
Clinging to the cross I'll follow You
I'll follow You

2009-01-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

Flooded...
:)

Yassy's IC training class was great. I really caught something from there man.. It's very hands on and I like that. The whole process. Yassy must have prayed for us to really catch the heart behind being an IC in church. Cos an ordinary exercise like that, without prayer, couldn't have made us grow and learn so much. Everything was just so easy to catch and understand. Amazing huh? :D

2009-01-12T14:36:00.002+08:00

Wow! Choir is simply exciting lah! It's so fun, so full of anticipation and at the same time, spiritual as well. There is definitely the heart of God church ETHOS in choir ministry... It's gonna grow to be so powerful and impactful yeah! I just received the choir email last night regarding our hangout and more "outings" (which mean to be on for choir during services). The culture in choir is really so smileful and exciting. I like. Hahhaha.

Things are look busier this year... What with new training, ministry stuff, people work and A levels, it's going to be yet another great stretch, an even greater one. I'm going to have to be prepared to give up a lot of leisure time. And start doing the things that can be done first. There's just so much. I'm looking forward to the end of the year when I'd be able to say I've just had such a fruitful year!

The class prayer meeting was great. Thank God for making it happen. :) When 2 or 3 people come together, God is among us. What's more 8 people! There is power in agreement. We gonna build up faith. :D

2009-01-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

Dominic is so powerful!
I feel God's presence when he prays.
Discipleship class today was awesome. God was just doing a work through that class man... What Dominic shared was very real and relational. It really spoke and I felt the heart behind it. I feel so privileged to be in discipleship class. It's really a very heart to heart talk and I love it... :) It's all about that moment. Moments like when the angel you and the devil you start to conflict... Choose to do the right thing. Because it's one thing to say it, but it's another thing to really do it. What Dominic shared is so true. Doing the right thing inspires people and they need it - they need an inspired moment and they need an example to follow, to show them that it can be done. I just can't wait for more discipleship classes. It's simply exciting!

I just told Jieru that I want to draw closer to her then she asked me where's my pencil. HAHA. SO LAME. I'm so awe-inspired man. Hahaha...

I wanted to talk about my trip to KL right... But all this pales in comparison to what's happening in church. Daily people are just getting impacted and changed all over again. So exciting man! Yeah I know, everything's exciting to me, that's what Cheng Nee said... Haha. I love living this life!

2008-12-26T11:07:00.004+08:00

This Christmas definitely is different from the other Christmases I've had. Wow.. So much has happened, I can't begin to describe everything man.

Great stretching
Wed Christmas Svc I was on choir and bookstore, Thur I was on choir and usher. Ministry the whole day, tiring but definitely satisfying. :)

Breakthroughs in ministry
Still learning more more more in bookstore as a really very new bookstore leader. I'm so privileged to rise up here, cos there's so much to it. Most of the time you gotta do the planning, the running, the cashier work, the impartation (briefing/debriefing). I'm getting used to closing accounts! It's going to be at the tip of my fingers yo! As well as orchestra and choir~

New friends
Besides the new friends in my CG like Zhi Zheng and Dominic and catching up with long-time-no-see people like Irene and Jasmine Tan (I miss you!), I got to know some church regulars too. Through simple stuff like doing usher and even just waiting for the bus at the bus stop, I got to know Janice and Lucinda a little better, Abigail, Jorin, 2 guys whose names I don't know (oops), etc...

Choir
Wow, wow, wow. I can't believe how much I've grown through choir. If you join choir, it's an EXPERIENCE man. The people, fun, laughter, stress, work, urgency, spirituality... everything forces you to grow. We're just so bonded lei, everyone clicks...and we share chocolate after performances! Haha! I wrote for Yong Hui in his christmas card that I like it that choir is such a spiritual ministry. When we're having rehearsals it's like we almost want to go into worship alr! HAHA. And now that Joanne's joining in, it's like soon, there'll be much impartation of the worship team culture. That's great. :)

Christmas cards
Yet another "wow!". This is indeed a test of our faithfulness man. A very challenging test. What with ministry and homework yet to be done, this is another level of slogging for a purpose. Haha. Still, it's great to see the facial expressions of the people who receive your cards, it's truly satisfying. A little effort goes a long way in touching lives. So... I gotta finish up my undone christmas cards! HAHAHA.

The happiest thing that could ever happen
Both my parents came for service to support me for choir. It's my dad's first time in church. So cool. And they stayed for the whole service. Wahh... I feel so blessed by God to have my family in church this Christmas. He's moving... I wanna thank Him so much!

Keep on keeping on, giving Him my best.

This Christmas, you're covered in my love and prayers if you're reading this. :)

2008-12-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

Zephaniah 3:16-17
Do not fear, let not your hands be weak. The Lord your God in your midst, the Mighty One will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you in His love.

Romans 12:10-11 [English Standard Version Bible]
Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord.

2008-12-20T23:53:00.002+08:00

It's been a great week of stretching for me.
Bookstore. Orchestra. Choir.
I really love ministry okay.
Choir, my newest one, is so FUN. Hahah. And it's a really spiritual ministry too. =) I like it lots.

I wanna grow in God like never before!
No matter the disappointments.
One thing I ask, that I may dwell in Your house forever.
There's always a place for me.
That I can be part of.
I love Heart of God Church.
I've been blessed with so many opportunities.
Thank God and my leaders.. :)

Still desiring to give Him my best!

One thing I ask
That I may dwell in Your house forever

2008-12-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hello blog. Today's title is cute baby twins.

Today's most exciting thing was... I played with Andrea!! (Sister Eileen's daughter who's almost 1 year old) SHE'S SO CUTE OKAY. I really like her. Hahah. And Mark's cute too, so innocent and simple! They're boy-girl twins and they both flow la, their eyes turn to look at things at the same time! HAHA so cute right! I was helping Andrea walk by holding her hands...She's just so cute! Lol. She kept smiling and laughing in that babyish speech and chuckle of hers.. So sweeeeet. When we reached the end of the room, I carried her up! And then I walked over to Sister Eileen and passed Andrea to her. Hahah.. I told Sister Eileen that I din know how to carry Andrea so I carried her like how I carry my bear. I think that made Sylvia and the bookstore people laugh la! Then Sister Eileen asked me whether my bear is cute! HAHA. She's so funny. Okay, I really love her kids!! *pinches their cheeks*

And all this was because of today's Bookstore Stock Count! Hahah.. Funny how Mark and Andrea always turn up for Stock Count! =D

2008-12-01T10:50:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna give Him my best!
=')

2008-11-24T10:26:00.003+08:00

They look at your life and decide whether they want to be like you.

:)

Okay. I have one free day and it's all cool. I get to spend some alone time at home. (Parents are at work!) Loving life to the max can! The past week has been just phenomenal. I'm embracing the cultural mandate. :) I just had this image while praying that I got to do some stuff.

What Pastor Kong, Pastor Phil Pringle and Dr. A.R. Bernard shared really renewed my mind man! I didn't know the cultural mandate is so biblical! For so many instances, it is stealthily mentioned. Yiwen put it so nicely in her blog:

i tell you, christianity is not something ancient.
unapplicable,irrelevant, fictional, idealistic.
even today, the Word is so real!
miracles are happening every day.
the presence of God is just here :D

:)

Today
I'm leaving all my troubles behind
I'm letting go I'll follow the line
I'm holding on with all of my life

I see a rising sun
We've only just begun

Today
I'm walking to the beat of Your heart
You take me all the way to the start
Stretch Your hands, straighten the path

The shadows fade away
It's You that clears the day

Today, today
Today

No more running wild
I'm Yours for life
Well You got me here
Well You got me

I hear Your call tonight
Your heart is mine
Well You got me here
Well You got me

:)

2008-11-20T00:39:00.004+08:00

Asia Conference 2008 Day 1 --> today!!
I'm proud to say I was there! HAHA. Pst Kong preached such a great message. Anyways, it was funny to sit beside Ryan Yap! (Gentson's brother) Hahah. I was telling the China delegates sitting in front of us that he's only 15! 15 leh! Next generation! Hahah. He's really a good boy lah, ask him copy notes from me, he really copy. :) The word was good, powerful, it got into me. Cultural mandate. So cool right even the title. [Acts 17 >> Paul in the city of Athens] I used to think that Athens is a very cool name. Oh man. I learnt alot about its history today. =D

I absolutely loved today! Why? Because what was supposed to be there was there and what wasn't, wasn't. Yay. The whole parade was super cool okay. Got Miss Singapore hor. Hahhs. And yes, I can now recognise the CHC worship team people. They are quite distinct-looking. Oh mans... Alison and Annabelle are the ones holding the 'Art of Worship Leading' workshop! I so badly want to be there. Jasmine, we crash hao bu hao? Hahah. If Lynette/Daniel/Roy was teaching, I'll confirm be there liao. =D

I went home with Winnie, Xin Yi and Xin Jie! We were all so tired that there was quite little conversation. Hahah. Until I went to stand beside Winnie's seat then we started talking lots.. It's so comfortable to talk to her lah. I enjoy talking to her =) Hahah. We were talking about the person sitting beside her. Shhh. It's our secret, hahah.

[[ When the stage is bare tonight
There’s no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There’s no pretense
I’m on my knees

I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice
You gave to me
It’s all because of You
All because of You ]]

{{ The God I know
Righteous and holy
The God I know
Faithful and true
The God I know
My tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of the City
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me
As You are, so are we }}

(( This is my cry
My one desire
More of You
More of You ))

{{ The church He knows
Righteous and holy
The church He knows
Is faithful and true
The church He knows
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The church He knows
Light of this city
The church He knows
Strengthens the weak
The church He knows
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we }}

=)

2008-11-17T00:20:00.003+08:00

Yay much better. ((:
Bible verses bible verses...
Don't know what to do?
Go read your bible. It opens up your eyes much much more. (:

And.. The street soccer in church was so jin cai lah! Esp last night, woah all the leaders played, super exciting to watch. HAHA. I've been reading Ivan's blog, so I kinda know he's a soccer fan and yeah, ytd finally got to see him play for real. Not bad ah! Got to see Roy play soccer and captain's ball too. His shirt says Tangaas. Lol. And Jian Ming is pretty pro at both I guess. Haha. Not forgetting Jieru, our CGL! She was on for anything man! Hahah. I had so much fun too! Yesterday, D5 got thrashed at captain's ball by Brother Sky's team - a very embarassing 10 : 4 !! HAHA. But we made a comeback today by winning 4 : 3 ! (maximum score is 4 before we had to stop playing) =D

Gonna be so much more effective during hols! Miscellaneous stuff that I really need to do:
1) Finish up my homework
2) Do assessment books
3) Work! (I need money!)
4) Finish reading some books - Prayer E., Breaking Intimidation, The Magicians' Guild and Twilight!

I heard that there's gonna be 15-h study rule for hols! Woahh. It really keeps me disciplined and motivates me man! =) But now is holidaysssss~~ =(

I could never make it through the dark without Your light
I could never stand my ground without Your strength inside
And I know what it is to lose Your life
And I know how it feels to be alive

2008-11-13T23:04:00.003+08:00

The words on someone's blog are really appropriate for me. Hahah. I wish I could copy them and paste them here but it's like copyright and you know, the whole world will come after me for it.. Anyways.

I saw you praying today. You were looking up to heaven and just praying softly. Wow. It's like, you are you in front of God. Like what Lynette said. Hmmm. Actually I knew what was in store but I still went and did it. Was that meant for me?

"Jesus doesn't promise us that everything'll be fine and he will turn everything around. No, He only promises us that He will be with us. He will be with us, that's all." - Nick Vujicic

That's all I need I guess. Jesus to be with me, walking me through every day.

"I like this poem about Footprints. It says that you only see one set of footprints during the hard times in your life because Jesus was carrying you." - Nick Vujicic

This man must be super powerful to have impacted me with his two phrases. All these did really strike something in me. Wow. Let Him carry me.. Lay my burdens at the cross. I give it all up! I really have no use for it..

Slowly but surely I hope?

Take this offering that I bring
Humbly I fall on my knees
To proclaim You're everything

My life's nothing without You
Take my hand and lead me through
You are my sustaining love

I live to worship You
I live to worship You

Here I am, worshipping You
With all I am, worshipping You
Bowing down, in spirit and truth
With lifted hands, worshipping You

I'm gonna worship You forever
I'm gonna worship You ((:

2008-11-13T21:59:00.002+08:00

RULES:
a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. You must write down that song name no matter how silly it sounds.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
熟能生巧 - JJ Lin
(LOL. act cheem ah.. I don't know what it means anyway. x))

2. How would you describe yourself?
开不了口 - Jay Chou
(Hahah! This is funny! But. Not true not true.)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
拥抱 - Mayday
(Haha.. This kinda fits. Well, maybe.)

4. How do you feel today?
Alvamar Overture - James Barnes
(It's a band song lol! It's quite happy happy. :) )

5. What is your life’s purpose?
This shuffled to one of Pastor How's sermons. Lol. But I reshuffled, here's the song:
Amazing Grace - Chris Tomlin
(Woahh. My life's purpose is God's amazing grace! Hahah.)

6. What is your motto?
Glorious Redeemer - Christian City Church
(Wow. Hahah..hmm but no link?)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Our God Reigns - Delirious
(HAHA! Good one.)

8. What do you think of your parents?
I Will Magnify You - Christian City Church
(WOAH. Hahah. I will magnify them ah.)

9. What do you think about very often?
16 minutes - High School Musical
(Lol. HUH??? I don't think about time actually.)

10. What is 2 + 2?
Always and Forever - Planetshakers
(2 + 2 is infinity! Hahahhaha.)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Great is our God - Christian City Church
(Lol. My best friend is God!! Hehehe.)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Follow - Planetshakers
(Wahh...This is terrible... Hm, to some extent, true for some people. Hahaha.)

13. What is your life story?
怎么办 - SHE
(Okay this is funny. My life story is dunno what to do. HAHA.)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Cry - City Harvest Church
(I want to be a cry in future. (???) )

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Healer - Hillsong
(Haha yes, the person I like will heal me, not hurt me! :) )

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Salvation is Here - Hillsong
(Lol. It's quite an upbeat song. Haha maybe! :D )

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Now Is The Time - Delirious
(Okay this is COMPLETELY irrelevant. Hahaha. Why didn't it shuffle to Amazing Grace? Think that would come true!)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Beautiful Saviour - Planetshakers
(Cool... I like to save people?)

19. What is your biggest fear?
76 Trombones - The Music Man
(Yes I'm scared of 76 trombones!! Can you imagine how loud they'd sound..)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Abba Gold - Xinmin Symphonic Band
(Hahah woah man. My biggest secret is that I LOVE ABBA yeahh!!)

21. What do you think of your friends?
Second Chance - Hillsong
(Haha. Yeah I'll forgive you if you do something bad to me! Haha second chance. :) )

22. What will you post this as?
For the Cause - Planetshakers
(Dramatic!)

This is fun, right? Got it from Yvonne Char's blog when I was blog-hopping. Hahhahahaha. :D

2008-11-12T12:27:00.002+08:00

The holiday mood is sinking in...zzz.
I have never ever slept till 12pm you know. I broke my record today! HAHA. which I don't like..actually. I don't like sleeping so much, it feels as if I've wasted my whole morning. I'm a morning person. (: I like waking at 7-8am feeling awake and refreshed. Afternoons are drowsy and draggy. Don't like. Hahah.

For you who have heard about Nick Vujicic but don't have the time/chance to see him and hear him, this is his webby! - http://lifewithoutlimbs.org You'll love it. (:

I heard that Nick Vujicic is coming back next year! Whao. All these speakers and conferences lined up for us this holiday are just so amazing. Pastor Kong really imparted much of his heart to us over the 3 nights. And I like the way he talks off pitch on purpose to emphasize on his point. He's a really dynamic and funny pastor! (:

City Harvest Church worship team came and played at our church the 1st and last night of Pst Kong's service. They're power okay.. Very very anointed. There was this thickness in the air even when singing praise songs - havent even worship!

I like this song! So full of power! :

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You are

You're the light in this darkness
You're the hope to the hopeless
You're the peace to the restless
You are

For there is no one like our God
For there is no one like our God

For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this city

2008-11-02T20:07:00.002+08:00

I wanna tell the whole world!
God helped me to find something important! I need it for my PW oral presentation exam next week.. it's like so urgent and I worked hard to prepare for the OP exam. I don't wanna because of one small thing then mess the whole thing up. OH MY GOSHH. Thank God. I wanted to message my teacher to ask him if can just be lenient and forget about it. BUT. Somehow I just went to look for it instead. And in less than 3 minutes of searching, I found it! It was in a specific place that I didn't think of looking in before. And I just found it there! SO COOL. It's like when I picked up my small bag that I had not used in a super long time, the Holy Spirit dropped an imprint inside my mind, it's like a memory, an image that showed me that it's specifically in the pouch. And I really found it there! WOAH.

PRAISE GOD. I can't be more grateful lah! Wah. I'm amazed.

Hahah. And to think that I thought I would have to search for hours in my whole room and all the messy stuff there. LOL! Even if I had to, I would still be happy if I found it in the end! Haha. I'm happy! :)

Okay I'm glad I got to tell you this! :)

2008-10-31T22:19:00.002+08:00

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are a simply happy person. You still view the world with a childlike innocence.

You have an easy going attitude, and you value harmony. You love freely and inspire others to love.

You inner demon is frailty. You are easily beaten down by life.

People think you're cute because you are optimistic. Your outlook on life is charming.

The Cute Monster Test

What Your Easter Egg Says About You

You are whimsical, spontaneous, and fun loving.

You connect well with people, but nature is your true love.

Changing locations and scenery is important to your creativity.

You are inspired by the surroundings around you

The Easter Egg Personality Test

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.

You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical.

You are extravagant, over the top, and indulgent. You set trends and influence people.

You need a lot of space in your life, and it's easy for you to feel stifled. You avoid commitment and responsibility whenever you can.

You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.

You are a good communicator. You work hard to get your ideas across effectively.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

Your Independence Level: High

You are extremely self reliant and autonomous.

You are definitely into doing your own thing.

But you also wouldn't turn down help if you needed it.

You follow your own path, but you don't do so blindly.

How Independent Are You?

What Your Back to School Personality Says About You

You are a lively, ambitious, and passionate person. You are driven to do well in life and aspire to great things.

You are most likely to succeed if you are working with other talented people. You thrive on a team.

Your greatest skill is organization. You are good at laying out a plan and making sure it gets followed.

Your biggest stumbling block in life is your lack of self confidence. You are a lot more capable than you give yourself credit for.

The number one thing you're thankful for is your friends and family.

The Back to School Test

You Are the Guru

You are a naturally good counselor. You are inspiring, encouraging, and compassionate.

You are eager to help everyone who crosses your path, even those who don't want to be helped.

You are a natural healer. People feel at peace when they are with you.

You are so good for people, in fact, that they go through withdrawal once you're gone.

You quietly do your own thing, without openly resisting. You secretly try to fix every problem.

Your biggest regret is not being able to help as many people as you'd like.

What Role Do You Play?

You Are Basil

You are quite popular and loved by post people.

You have a mild temperament, but your style is definitely distinctive.

You are sweet, attractive, and you often smell good.

What Spice Are You?

2008-10-27T10:48:00.001+08:00

You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.

You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.

Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.

And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

You Are 52% Interesting

You are a fairly interesting person. Many people find you to be intriguing.

You have a dynamic, adventurous life... a life that others envy.

You are genuinely interested in and open to the world.

You love making new friends, and you're always up for an unusual experience.

Like everyone else, you can get a bit boring from time to time. That's normal.

But unlike everyone else, you can pull yourself out of a rut. You don't stay boring for long.

Are You Boring or Interesting?

2008-10-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

You Are Monday

Like this day of the week, you are ruled by the moon.

More than anything, you are flexible.

You are moody and impressionable. You are easily influenced by the world around you.

And while you can be temperamental, you eventually adjust.

While Mondays tend to be the hardest day for people, you don't mind getting back to regular life.

You're the one waking up early and making the coffee while everyone else complains.

What Day of the Week Are You?

You Should Be a Pumpkin

You are seen as cute and adorable. People can't help but love you.

You see Halloween as the day you can really go all out and get noticed.

You're definitely likely to get a little scared on Halloween.

You are easily spooked, but you love feeling scared. It's all part of the fun.

What Classic Halloween Costume Should You Wear?

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.

You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.

You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves.

You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

What's Your Inner Gender?

You Are a Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new.

However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like.

You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation.

You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please

What Kind of Coffee Girl Are You?

2008-10-19T00:03:00.002+08:00

worthy
You alone are worthy
You alone are holy
You alone are God...

i like the lyrics. simple yet it holds so much weight.

stop. stop. stop.
determined? uncertain?
half-heartedness?!
S-T-O-P
STOP.

ooh. sounds poetic~ hahahha.

2008-10-17T02:44:00.002+08:00

I went to Pastor Ma's wake on Wednesday. It was an experience man.. Hahah, it's just 2 blocks away from my new house ehh..and it's where Pastor Lia grew up and where Lynette they all used to play when they were younger. So cool~~ I didn't know! HAHA. Ok. Anyway, me and Peijun took cab down from Paya Lebar cos we were afraid to be late... hahaha.

The service, atmosphere, everything was absolutely great.. We worshipped with the songs Emmanuel and Amazing Grace. It's beautiful. I've never really worshipped at a wake before. The last christian funeral I attended was my grandfather's. And I wasn't really christian then. Hahhs. (see my sec1 blog: http://trueblueme.blogspot.com, 12th and 13th April post, maybe 9th April if you want.) It's something new. And I'm feeling so hopeful yeahh.. I've never really thought deeply about the assurance of going to heaven until Pastor Lia talked about it last weekend, the day after Pastor Ma passed away..It really made me cry, and this girl from TJC who came to church and was sitting beside me, cried too. It's a very thoughtful and emotional topic yeah? Jesus came to save us and He paid for our price of sin, so that we may have eternal life in heaven. Thank You Jesus. :))

During the funeral service, the pastor (whom I don't know) was really nice, spoke meaningfully, and with some funny bits. We even laughed lar. But it's alright, we got hope YEAH! A christian funeral is not an eternal goodbye. It's a temporary farewell, just like sending someone off at the airport. We feel sad for not seeing the person maybe for some years, but we know that we will see that person again one day in heaven. I believe that.

The video of Pastor Ma's memories is truly awe-inspiring. It's everything about her - her smile, her grandmotherly-ness, her passion for Jesus, for learning to read the bible even though she is illiterate. She's a great woman of God, so humble but powerful. Although I'm not close to her, I know that I will really love her a lot if I'm her grand-daughter or simply just by knowing her. I'm glad I attended the wake. Something just changed in me I guess.

So many stuffs have been happening the past week. I've been learning.. alot alot. And thinking alot. I am going to make it happen man..not gonna wait for this to end..I'm gonna make it happen. Hais. What with so many things going on in my life, in school, in church, you know, PW and stuff, I still love my life alot. All the challenges. They are actually quite meaningful and fun. Without them, I would never learn how to live life. And my life would just be so mediocre and boring. Hahhs. I wanna smile more. (:

Yesterday during contact time at school, some Paralympic sports people came for an interview sort of thing. Our teacher asked them questions, very sensitive ones, like about how they are discriminated for being handicapped, all that. It's very eye-opening. I saw how they tackled those questions. Eric, with his simplicity and really simple sense of humour, just blew all of us away. Eric is paralysed from chest down. And he is a christian. This is the line he said that really surprised and impacted me:

"My church is still praying for me up till now. So, if you see me walking on the streets one day, don't be surprised."

Silence. And then we clapped for that. Wow. Such a man of faith yeah? Seeds are being sown in school. The TJCians just loved what he spoke about. So many other things. (:

I like to confide in Ying Loo. She's a great listener. Hahhs. I didn't really know whether to tell her or not. But I gave in. Hahah. Ok. I think I'll feel much better. And I wish I was a better listener. Heh. Ok. You guys... Know this: I'm praying for you.

2008-10-11T02:28:00.001+08:00

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest:

You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.

At Your Lowest:

You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.

In Love:

You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.

How You're Attractive:

You are very affectionate and inspire trust.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Respected?"

What's Your Power Color?

You Are A Blue Girl

Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you.

You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.

If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.

You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.

What Color Girl Are You?

2008-10-11T01:53:00.002+08:00

You Are Having a Blue Day

Today is the kind of day that challenges you to the core. You're going to have to stay cool.

You have the intelligence, skills, and drive to rise to the occasion. Your mind is sharp.

While things may be a bit chaotic, you are still taking the time to reflect and be calm.

Today you are extra attractive and interesting to people. You are giving off a detached vibe, which is very intriguing.

What Color Day Are You Having?

What Your Burger Says About You

You are very gluttonous. Even if you're full, you'll still clear your plate.

You have very strong willpower. If you're on a diet, you stick to it.

You are emotional. You have a big heart, and you tend to go for comfort foods.

You have trouble making decisions quickly. Everything looks good to you... especially at a restaurant.

You are creative, open minded, and friendly. You are interested in all types of food and new dishes.

What Does Your Burger Say About You?

Your Thinking is Concrete and Random

You are naturally inquisitive and curious.

You're excited by new ideas, and you are a true independent thinker.

You are interested in what is possible. You like the process of discovery.

You are often experimenting, challenging old ideas, and inventing new concepts.

Rules, restrictions, and limit don't really work for you.

You have to do things your own way, and you can't be bothered to explain yourself.

What Kind of Thinker Are You?

2008-10-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

I went for Ranford's CG today. It was powerful!

This is my desire
To honour You
Lord with all my heart
I'll worship You

All I have within me
I give You praise
All that I adore
Is in You

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

2008-10-07T21:08:00.002+08:00

I haven't eaten buffet for such a long time!
Hehehe..Today is my dad's birthday and also parents' wedding anniversary. Cool right?
We went to Sakura at Yio Chu Kang to eat! Actually wanted to go to some restaurant de, but ended up eating buffet! HEH. It was BRRRR. Cold.. And can you imagine it's my first time having japanese kueh and sea coconut in my mouth at the same time! Ewww..and it was quite disgusting lahh. And I didn't know Expresso was so bitter. Hahhas. Ok I shall stop talking about disgusting food..other stuff I ate were cheese clams and baked oyster. I know why Mr Bean likes clams/mussels le. I didn't dare to eat the mussel cos I could see the thing's mouth sticking out lah! Ewww. HAHA. There was shark's fin soup, sushi, potato wedges, fried shrimp, fish, egg fried rice, some short noodle thing that was really nice and bean paste that was really nice too!! I was surprised I still could stuff so much when both my parents were already full. Woah greedy pig. Hahahs! I'm supposed to be the one who can't eat much! Hello? Heheh..

Maybe it's because I'm sick? Today was the sickest day in the whole year. I have cough and sore throat. And it's those phlegm-less cough, which means I don't even have anything to spit out. LOL. Nevermind. I left school early. SO TROUBLESOME LEH TJC. Have to get the permission slip to leave sch from general office, then pass to teacher to sign, then get any HOD to sign, then return top part of the slip to general office. A lot to do right? What if the student faints! Hahhs. Cannot liddat ar.. =(

Okays and I'm doing a lot of writing lately. It's really fun to write! I really really really really wanna be an author, but there's no future for this occupation in Singapore. Awww.. Maybe I still can be. Haha. Sometimes I think part-time is not enough. Just look at me. I get so excited over storylines and plots and I like English, esp O lvl when we can write narratives. It's soooo fun!! ((:

I missed CG and orchestra today. Hais. I miss church lah. And I need to get my BMT(B) Product Knowledge Assignment done! Hahas. We had bookstore stock take yesterday. It was super accomplishing man. Moving stuff, counting stuff, playing with Eileen's kids, Mark & Andrea! THEY ARE BOY AND GIRL TWINS AND ARE SOOOO CUTE. 8 months old I think? Drool all over the place, crawl around, cry when Mummy doesn't carry them, touch my shoelaces. So cute right? =D And then worship team was having rehearsal mah and we had free music for awhile. Hahahs. No lah. Oh, they're playing Dancing Queen for offering song I think! It's funny!! Wanna sing. HAHA. Alright.

Who am I
That you would know me from the start
Set me apart

Who am I
That you would place eternity
Into my heart

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life
I lay at Your altar
One love
I have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands... <3

My Personality

2008-10-02T18:09:00.001+08:00

2008-09-27T12:33:00.002+08:00

What's this restless feeling of suddenly having nothing to do?
I stand on MRT trains and wanna take out notes to read but there's just no point.
I laze in bed for as long as I want without feeling guilty.
I want to go out or do something but have not made plans yet.
I'm feeling bored.
Suddenly all the 1001 things I can do online are gone once exams ended.
I would rather spend the few minutes before bedtime reading my book in bed under the lamplight than reading my notes. But now, after exams are over, I just wanna fall asleep straightaway.
I suddenly have over 10 smses to reply to this morning. And I spent quite long replying all of them and replying to more replies that come in. I realise I wasted my morning replying smses.

That's why I'm here.
Hahha.
Oh my. During math exam ytd, the song 'Down' was just playing in my head over and over again. Lol. Cos I listened to it while studying math. And this exam was not really done by me. It's God who helped me.
Before exam I closed my eyes to pray and then after I was done and opened my eyes, the invigilator said "You may start now." Hahah. So abrupt! And there's one question where they give you the graph but you have to choose between 4 options (A, B, C, D), which one is the right equation of the graph given. I tried to find the asymptotes by spotting it in the equations but to be honest, I really dunno how to do lah..hahah.

And then this idea came into my head and I used my GC to graph out the equations A, B, C and D to try to find the graph that matches the one in the question. Although they didn't give any coefficients (numbers) in the equations A, B, C, D, (eg. they gave ax^3 + bx^2 + cx, not 3x^3 + 2x^2 + x), I just anyhow substituted in some numbers in my GC. And then I found the graph that matched the graph given. The answer was option C. BUT. The next question nearly made me think it was impossible to solve. --> What is the value (number) of 'a' in the equation? (remember they didn't give us the coefficients)

Desperate, I checked back in my GC for the table values for x and y. AND I REALISED THAT THE ASYMPTOTES IN THE GRAPH IN MY GC AND THE GRAPH IN THE QUESTION ARE EXACTLY THE SAME. Which means that the numbers that I anyhow picked to substitute into the equations are exactly correct. LOL. Happily I wrote down the number I put in for the value 'a' which was 3.

Hahha. I was super happy at that moment. Yay. It's not impossible! Normally this type of question I read already, dun understand, just skip. Haha. I'm very glad I didn't give up! Thank You Lord for helping me!

CG was awesome! And so was the Mind Cafe outing we had after that. It's a games cafe and everything was wonderful. Bonding time is great! After that, went for PGSM preview, it's doubly good. Pastor How was trying to keep the whole thing exciting and not make us feel bored. He's really nice. Haha. There's this part where he said that in the past when people tell their friends, "I'm going to sign up for a tourism course.", their friends would say "HUH you want to be tour guide ah?" That was super funny. LOL.

Ok, I gotta go bathe and try get rid of my headache le..hahhs..byee! (:

2008-09-24T13:51:00.003+08:00

It's miraculous how I took my paper.
Hahah..I studied econs for less than 3 hours I think? As in.. I studied more than 3 hours but only put in less than 3 hours' effort. Hahhss. Slept at 1 plus.. Set 3 alarms to wake up at 4, 4.05 and 4.10am to finish up market structure. But I didn't hear the alarms! x( Guess I was SUPERtired.
Woke at 6.30pm because of mum calling in.. WA. She saved my life man. If she didnt call I would have been late for school - exam day eh!! Hahahah. My mum rocks.

Yeah but I panicked.. I overslept for 2.5 hrs and have not touched mkt structure nor finished up the remains of inflation!! :O Prayed on the MRT to school. And just read through and tried to memorise the whole thing in 1 hour. And took my econs exam. Surprisingly I think I wrote better for mkt structure than inflation. Hahahs. And case study was good. I AM GOING TO DO WELL. :D

Sometimes.. I don't like it when after an exam I have confidence on the paper I did and think I have done well but my friends keep complaining about the paper being very hard and they all sure don't do well..and then.. end up they do better than me. Is it complacency? I don't know.. I wanna know when I do well and when I don't so I don't get a shock when the paper comes back and get so disappointed. Hahhs. But yeah, it doesnt affect me that much if I do badly usually, but only if I initially thought I had done well then get disappointed. Oh wells.. Hope it doesn't happen to this econs paper. Just a random thought.

To people I may seem very studious and like studying. But I don't actually.. You can see me studying like every day. But how many times do I get distracted? SUPERalot. Maybe thats why I need to sit down and study more than other people. And it seems as if I like studying.. Nopenope.. Hahahs.. You can ask peijun.. Why we study? I think mostly is to be a good testimony. If I didn't go to church, I may not study so hard. I may just give up. Cos anyway it's me people look at. And what I do I suffer the consequences. But now it's different. It's a greater responsibility. And I think it's easier to win souls if we do well in studies. People are drawn to your ability. You are able to help them, not always struggling to try to help yourself. You can fulfill their needs. People know they can trust you. And they know you're not a slacker. Oh well. Someone today just randomly suaned me for being a mugger. Maybe she didnt mean it but it sounded like studying is really bad. But what's wrong? Haha.. In the end who is the one who does well? I study because of them. They just don't know.. Okay the point is .. I don't like studying. Really. Hahaha. I digressed too much..

I spent the last 4 hours slacking.. Alamak.. That's alot hahha. It's chem paper tmr and math on fri! Given my need of more time in case I get distracted. I shall go off now. Bye! Sarangheiyo! Hahhaha. (:

2008-09-22T20:07:00.004+08:00

Promos is making my life super restricted.
Don't like this feeling. ):
Got to endure this coming 2 days..most severe 2 days.. Here I come. I'm going to make it through. But with some sacrifices? I don't know how I can help you. Or if I have the capability to do so. Please at least do something and save me the anxiety. I don't know why I'm feeling more stressed over YOUR exams than you do. =/

AHHHHHHHHHHHH.

List of things to do after promos:
Shopping
Hair cut
Finish the new testament
Read super alot of books.. my John Bevere and Ed Silvoso books..
Study more diligently, do assessments
KTV
Movies
Minds' Cafe

God help me.. Give me the strength to endure all of this. I'm in need of You.

2008-09-15T03:48:00.002+08:00

Today's service was powerful man. So powerful that I have to blog about it. It really strikes you on your heart and sends a shiver down you. Haha. I don't know how to say but yea.. At first I felt quite weird cos Pastor talked about sex. But it got okay. (: I'm learning about sex in church.. So cool right.. But not in the 'wrong' context. Virginity is so amazing.. One thing. One life. One person. One lifetime. =D "This is the generation that will remain pure and holy before God." Wow. That struck my heart man. I just began to tear a little.. Hahah. Pastor How is so powerful.. (: And before I get married, I want to be prayed for by Pastors! They're so loving and our role model in marriage. (:

And I found out so many things today. HAHA. Ok. For many people, on the surface you may think that they make the perfect couple with this someone, but actually there're alot of complications beneath. I mean deep crushes. But of course we place God above all and flee temptation. (: I love it. It's a really sacrificial act and so noble. Hahah.

I like this song.. =D

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone

And every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

Love love love.

2008-09-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

Spent 10am to 6.30pm with Pei Jun in tamp lib - yes, studying! That's 8.5 hours! But when I counted, I only studied 3.5 hours! How could that be.. That means I spent 5 hrs eating, talking nonsense and scribbling rubbish on Pei Jun's notes. Oh myyyy. I need self-discipline. And yet she says it was productive. Hahhs. Yes it would be productive if I had just spent 4 hours in the library. (:

Oh wells.. I dunno how I spend my time. It's like money.. You spend more than you think you do. And you don't know what you spent it on. Lol. Tomorrow is yet another full day of studying! Except for a break of orchestra practice from 4.30-7pm. I AM SO GONNA MAKE IT PRODUCTIVE. Hehhs. Not gonna waste time anymore. Haha. If you think you're gonna talk to me, let's sit separate tables. (:

Problems I have while studying:
1) I have to reply smses now and then. And I have to think what to reply. That takes timeee.
2) I will talk to certain people. Like Pei Jun. And once we talk, it's very hard to stop. I don't talk to Valerie that much. Besides, she has selective hearing and it's a good thing. =P I should study with her more.
3) I can't sit still. I feel restless every 15 minutes of silence. Unless I'm already in momentum and super motivated, which doesn't happen 90% of the time. Haha. Recall the time I studied with Pei Jun and Val at tamp lib, me with my mp3 plugged in. The 2 of them were talking while I was focussed. I need that kind of concentration again!! Rahhhs. :/
4) I will zone out on my notes. I will just stare at the same line over and over again and it stares back at me. I hate this feeling.. ): Need super alot of concentration and careful reading to understand it.
5) My stomach growls and distracts me.
6) I set too high standards to complete for the day and end up not realising it. = Discouragement. Need to set realistic goals. But later I set too little how.. Lol. I need satisfaction!! Yay.
7) I daydream. What am I going to do after promos... Hmmm...
8) I get too absorbed in my mp3 song and end up listening intently to it instead of doing my work, which happens quite often and I don't even realise it until after awhile.

My top 8 bad habits!! Stop them and I tell you, I can finish studying for the whole Promos in this week. Haha WOW. That sounds awesome and super tempting. (:

Listen to You Deserve! It's one of my songs for the season! It totally lifts me up yeah. And the title can't be found in the lyrics. Super funny luh. (:

2008-08-28T23:06:00.002+08:00

Be like Daniel in your school.

Seriously, YL can go and be a chinese romance poet liao lor. In class I was reading her 2008 planner where besides recording down homework and events, she writes all kinds of random stuffs and crap. (: Like at anytime in the day, when a random thought, inspiration or feeling comes, she'll vent it all in her planner book. There's a lot of creativity in there and it's a pretty personalised book. I came across this phrase that says 我们之间的玻璃，并不透明。It's so zai right? It's poetry in itself. Hahah. That's why I say she can become chinese poet liao. Hehehe.

School has been good. Especially in the area of paying attention in lecture. My attention level went up from about 35% to 80%. Big jump hor. I'm really making an effort to listen though it may be boring. And the lecturers are getting more exciting! Showing videos or quirky quotes or stories to us before going into the lesson. (: Hey Mr Tan rocks in bio lecture luh! I've never ever slept in his lecture so far. Maybe his topic is simpler and more fun. The other teachers yes, sorry to say. Hahah. Can't help it!~ =P

I improved! I'm going to pass promos. With soaring colours. Hehe. Can de!! Jiayou all taking exams! Jomain don't be stressed! (:

Signing off to sleep,
Zhenghui :D

2008-08-23T22:41:00.002+08:00

"No matter what I'll still bring praise."
Those were the most impactful words Pei Jun spoke today. LOL.
She may not know it at that time but when she said it, it did strike something in me. Hahha.
Budden the atmosphere was quite light, she just said it for fun and we laughed it off. Haha. But I still remember that.
Pei Jun is so powerful man. Haha. She actually wrote that for her classmate when she was feeling down. Haha yea her classmate's christian. (:

You may have guessed that we went out together. And yes, it was to study! So clever. Hahhs. Both of us couldnt finish study rule so we went airport to study. Aiyah. In the end we really talked alot and shared many stuffs, one of which being the upcoming birthday celebration for Pastor How! It's super exciting can. I din know Roy could act. Hahah. And of course we shared sch stuffs..blahhx. We wanted to pray together! (:

Then it was so funny, know. I asked her to help me with my math qn and then she asked me to pray for her 2 new friends in the meantime. After that she said, oh no! forgot to pray that they will not back out! and then her turn to pray. So funny. We were praying in Burger King lah. Haha. Is those kind put head down pretend to slp de. Hahhs.

Okay kinda too many things happened and I can't exactly remember what I told her. Hahah. Oh yes. One important stuff we shared. God puts us through things to train us up in that area. It's so important to know. (: Sometimes when we are in conflict with ourselves like we feel so vexed over someone/something in our life, the HS reassures us that it's a training God puts us through. So we have to learn from it!!
During contact time in sch, they actually played a speech by Oprah Winfrey, who said, "The most important question you have to ask during a trial is not 'Why is this happening to me?', but 'What can I learn from this?'" This is the statement that blew me away. (: And I know those people who really paid attention to the speech really got impacted! Sure one. Who wouldn't! (:

By right, Pei Jun and I left the airport at about 6.15. By left, we left at about 6.40. Because of our wild goose chase of finding a bookstore! Aiyo. Hahhs. Wanted to buy a card for someone. Aiyah, shan't elaborate. Hahahs. But anyway, as we were walking, we saw a bunch of zone F ppl! Chelsea, Jomain, Josephine, Esther..etc. F2 and F4 I think? So chiau!

Then right, when we decided to give up searching for the bookstore and head for the MRT station, guess who we met? Hahahs. Dominic, Jian Ming, Joanne and friends were heading our way! Haha super paiseh. Dominic didn't see us, but we said hi to Jian Ming and Joanne. Really super paiseh. We never go service..bcos wanted to complete study rule. =]

Pei Jun aka Peggy and I just went tampines mall to buy the card and eat. There was this guy from Pei Jun's sch badmouthing a girl from his class, also in the same PW group. And then, we were like, woah, must get this girl saved. Her whole class and even the next class hates her.. Oh sian. Hahh. The funny part was when I said grace. Thanked God for the time of fellowship and... Then after I finished, Pei Jun said "Woah really fellowship." (:

Wow. I was just looking at our class photo and going wow. Haha. 10/24. This is so cool. I would never have imagined. (: I see a near rev~ God blessed me with a good class. (:

2008-07-30T21:14:00.002+08:00

Thank You Lord for miracles.
I know she's going to be such a great testimony for You.
((:

When the music fades..all is stripped away. And I simply come..
You search much deeper within..through the way things appear, You're looking into my heart.
I'm coming back to the heart of worship, when it's all about You Jesus.
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it, when it's all about You.

2008-07-21T11:37:00.003+08:00

And so, this week is E-learning week and I can finally catch up with my revision and my sleep debt. All hail Temasek JC! Hahah.
Lovely.

Yes, it's 11.40am and my day has just started (aside from chionging EOM this morning).
It seems like I have 1001 things to do but I have eternity to do them. Hahah. No lah. I don't have. Hahhs.. Wonderful to be at home. At least I'm with mum. And she can stop complaining that I never spend time with her. =P Going out with mum later. Mos Burger. =D
Had Putu Mayam for breakfast. Dunno how to spell. Haha. But I guess that'll do. I like the red sugar on the Putu Mayam! Lol. Wahh. I feel like it's the holidays. Hahha. Everything is slow-sailing.. .. .. zzz..

There's this PE MCQ quiz on the Olympic Games for the PE E-learning. I'm not going to tikam, I'm gonna really go find out the answers and do it properly! Maybe there's a mystery prize if you get full marks. Hahha! =)

Okay, I'm off to do my E-learning! Meanwhile, listen to this song Assuredly Yours. It's just awesome. =)

All that I am is in You
All that I seek is to follow You
I run to Your side when You call
There is a hope I am longing for

Just to be by Your side
There is hope in my life
There is no other freedom I'll find...
So,

Take my life
All that I have to give
Take my world
Just inhabit all of it
Take my dreams
Make me assuredly Yours...

2008-07-18T16:09:00.002+08:00

My life.

PW
The EOM assignment is due next monday. It is supposed to be 600words long. Not that long, maybe about 1.5 pages on a piece of A4-sized paper. But it sure takes real long to plan and do. ): Hahah. And this is really cool *val agrees* - MOE makes us do EOM which makes us feel EMO. Saw this in someone's msn nick!

Laptop
Yeah I got a new laptop!! Hahah. Powercool. I love it. Actually supposed to be O lvl reward from my dad..owe super long already can. hahhahah. Just wanna play ard with it.

AE
AE's coming up and it's gonna be so zai. Just what I need. I neeeeed to study. I realised, as I'm recording my study rule, I don't even study more than 1 or 1.5 hrs a day on a usual day. Oh no. 15 hours!! Set the pace! (: Can't slack anymore..promos, my dear! (:

Spiritual adoption
Impacted by what Jieru shared. It's really powerful. And pastors have dreams, hoGc people have visions, it's gonna happen! Assured. Prayer brings faith. Need more faith!!

Impacted
Wow man. Just really impacted by leaders. And zone F leaders are cool, people like Ivan, Joanne, Lynette and Jian Ming. They really love people.
Jamie's CG did change how I think about what a CG should be like too. (: We're brothers and sisters! Love one another!

People
People everywhere are just interesting to observe lah. Especially on the MRT. Sometimes it can be really exciting and funny to see what people do! x) And cannot lah, I always amchio on the MRT, same as Pei Jun and Qian Qian. A CG stigma! LOL.

Orchestra
Up a new level!
Growing in lots of areas but not in numbers! God counts! Join orchestra, people!! (:

Study rule
Aww.. I need to chiong finish on Sat morning. Or else no church. No cannot lidat!!

School life
We got back our results slip. Let's be frank, I got DEEUU. Not bad la hor. =P I passed the whole JCT.
Bio - D
Econs - E
GP - E
Math - U
Chem - U
Please spare me. I'll study harder. =X

Having loads of FUN with classmates. We're like bonds on an atom. I love hanging out with them too. People like Ying Loo, Le Xuan, Felise, Joanne, Siew Chi, Cheryl, Priya etc etc. OH MAN. And Grace is soooo funny!! Can't stand her. Haha. I never tried sitting beside her in class u know, if I do, I might die of laughter. HAHA. She's super funny. She can turn to the back row and say something and then the whole row will laugh lah. That's how funny.

Classroom scenario
*Grace turns and faces my row of tables.*
Grace said very loudly: "Hey 'suan tou' is it 'tin can' in chinese?"
Someone: "No, tin can is 'guan tou'
The whole row laughs.
Then Mrs Tag was teaching mah, then she turned to us and said "Aiyo, your class very noisy leh.."
Bryan: "Like dog market."
The class laughs even more.
LOL.
It's super funny. And Bryan said in a very cool way. It's really stomach-bursting. Laugh till...

Okay, yeahh, I'm blogging in school by the way. Heh. And I gotta go! Meeting Pei Jun to eat and study! Sehya, and have fun!! (:

2008-07-17T10:00:00.002+08:00

Currently in school..and
I have 5mins to blog before bio practical lesson starts.
Woh. I have sooooo many things to blog about but I don't have the time!! ):
PW, laptop, AE, spiritual adoption, impacted, people, orchestra, study rule, school life blahhs...
72364786894 things have happened the past 2 weeks and it's just awesome.
Loving this life!!
ahhh.. I have 3mins left!!
Hmm.. go and read Pei Jun's blog, it summarises more or less how I'm feeling, JC life is the same everywhere! Hahah!
http://acidsnow.blogspot.com
And it's so irritating, why? Cos she doesn't have a tagboard!!
Nevertheless, I still love your blog, Pei Jun.
Sorry I'm crapping ahh but really no time =)
Maybe I'll blog about all of the above (PW, laptop, AE, spiritual adoption, impacted, people, orchestra, study rule, school life) like this weekend or something. Don't promise - but try okay!!
Really GOT TO GO!!
Enjoyed this post!
Bye! =)

2008-06-28T08:49:00.002+08:00

27 June 2008
Exaaaaams areeeeee oveeeeer!!

I can't believe it.

I'm suffering from exam-withdrawal symptoms. (to clarify, I don't like exams ok.)

Somehow my brain tells me that I need to study at every free moment.

And I feel so guilty slacking or doing things that I like eg. sleeping, watching TV, even turning on the computer.

Arggh.

I really want to slack now. Exams are over. Come on. I've been waiting for this day since the whole June hols. Haha. What's with me?!!

I think Jomain has exam-withdrawal symptoms too. Even if she doesn't have exams. Haha. That girl will sure score 1 point for 'O's. Look at her study.

3 July 2008
I seriously need 48 hours a day! Hahah. Wanna study, practise vocals, read more books and learn the music theory that I'm gonna be tested on next monday. Woooo. Vocals exam on youth day. Looking forward but yet to prepare much. Need to learn so much more.

AND WOW. I CONSULTED LYNETTE. Together with Wei Hong, Vicki, Clara, Nicholas Tan and Pansiri. It was reeeally superbb. (: Took down a pageful of notes. But gained super alot of experience. Lynette sang the harmony as I sang the melody of King of Majesty that goes "Jesus You are the saviour of my soul.." And she was just, "wow". :D And so many things man. She said worship-leading all comes back to your own spiritual life. And that's cool. Need to grow so much more more!! Thank you Lynette! And and.. We had so much laughterrr and funnn. (: It's so wonderful.

Believe it or not I'm blogging in church! Heheh.. Having fun and just feel so refreshed and good. Guitar worship is another level and it's great. And singing a new song to God is VERY cool. Just sing your own song. Even in english, singing what you wanna say to God. It's very awesome. Try it!

p.s. Weihao's playing electric guitar on stage now. Hosanna. (:

2008-06-17T00:14:00.002+08:00

Airport day was cool. Hyper. And fun-filled to the brim.
That was yesterday. (:
D5 went there to eat Popeye's and to send Vanessa off to France for 2 years.
Awww. Sounds quite tragic. But the whole experience is just sweet sweet sweeeeeet. It bonded our CG, raised the dynamics and everything is sailing nicely. We did so many things together. (:

#1 WE TURNED FROM A CG INTO A CHOIR AND SANG 2 LOVELY FAREWELL SONGS TO VANESSA.
It was the hits lah. I Want It That Way and Larger Than Life by Backstreet Boys. Coupled with Valerie and Annlynn's Wish. It must have been so touching. This happened last Friday during the outing at Ranford's house. Look at the CG. We became so united from this. Oh yes. And from watching Ah Long Pte Ltd. Anyone noticed the Indian lady at the background dancing the Ah Long dance?

#2 WE ATE OUR POPEYE MEALS HAPPILY, SITTING IN A SEMI-CIRCLE AROUND THE AIRPORT FOUNTAIN.
Doesn't that look cute? Hahah. Jieru was exclaiming in excitement when she saw the scene. It looks really really sweet and bonding! Carlo said grace for us. It was loud, proud and beautiful. People around us were watching. And when the guys discovered that the Popeye people gave them 12 biscuits instead of 6 that they had ordered, they shared the biscuits with the CG. Love --> D-FIVE! ((:

#3 WE TOOK MANY CRAZY PHOTOS AND EVEN TRIED TO IMITATE THE 9 STONES.
Yes, we did the 9 stone's signature pose - standing according to height & leaning on one arm on the next person's shoulder. Quite exciting and funny. Irritating Novel had to keep destroying our photos by suddenly jumping into the picture or waving his hands in front of the camera. Thanks Novel. (: I wish I have the pictures to show you but.. ): Anyway, we were making a whole lot of noise as we were do-ers of the Word. =P But it was really happy noise and not chaotic noisy noise for the sake of making noise. We did catch the attention of people around and it was all cool. They looked at us with happy interested faces, not irritated faces. Must be wondering why this bunch of teenagers are having so much fun and they don't even look half like gangsters. (:

#4 WE TALKED ABOUT REVIVAL LIKE IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN IMMEDIATELY.
Oh the excitement in our hearts that night. Peijun, Zhi Lin, Qian qian and I took a pioneers' photo together, each representing our own JC. The photo is supposed to be professional okay! It looks real good and I'm so excited over it. The day will come when it will be shown on projection during service when our schools experience revival. BREAKTHROUGH! D5 schools revival video. Who brought who and what nots. (: It will be so sweet. (: And the funny part was when the girls scolded the guys for not integrating the new guys. Orh hor. So they better do! =P Okay. So here births our MSN nicks : D FIVE for fighting, fight for fifty!

2008-06-05T22:12:00.004+08:00

SOW is fantastic.

Every event that has happened has been great. BMT, SOW, Pst Tan's service, Zone D hangout..everything. Somehow there's just this energy when I step into church. Even if I'm feeling down/depressed/emo, once I walk into church, my spirits lift and I'm just cured of every ailment life has given me. It's a privilege to be in Heart of God church. What God has given me, the world can never give. ((:

Yes. Back to my point about SOW. (:
1st lesson was taken by our own instructor --- Lynette!
She is just so experienced. Many many stories of the worship team, the rehearsals.. it's just so cool and exciting! Imagine the scene in the Artistes' Room where everyone's scrambling, screaming, grabbing for make up. FUNNY. (I think I've seen that scene before during new year service when orchs was performing.) Besides the stories, I learnt some stuff that can be applied as well. And Lynette asked at the end: "Did you guys learn anything today?" (: Oh man, it's a yes!! Yes yes yes!! :D

2nd lesson was a lecture by Yong Hui.
And I tell you, I never knew he was so FUNNY. Oh mann. And he is really really super knowledgeable about music ok. I learnt so much more about the circle of 5ths than I did in my 4 years in band. What with "Fatty can go down and eat" and "Both eagles and dragons got claws". HAHA. And the way he said it. We had a great laughing session. It's veh veh veh fun. (:
I had this senior in band called Leon and he was my section leader and the one who taught me alot of music stuff. I realised Yong Hui and Leon's teaching style is quite similar. Must say that people who are crazy about music teach about the same way huh. But Yong Hui's lesson is more zai! We learnt basic theory + harmony + circle of 5ths + "anatomy of the voice" + intervals etc etc etc, IN JUST ONE AND A HALF HOURS. Haha. No more arguments. Zai anot.. hahah. He told us that he was telling Roy that he wanted to complete teaching harmony during this lesson. And Roy was like "you siao ar". Haha. It's super funny. Even Hong Rui said that their drums lesson is super funny too --> Hong Hwee's the instructor.

Pastor Lia showed us a video. A very meaningful video. Exclusive to only BMT and SOW people. It's such a privilege to be serving in the house of God, even though we may not start off glamorous. Even though it's a lot of discipline and toil. Even though we will get corrected and discipled. But correction isn't rejection. (: Like Garrett so aptly and humorously put it, discipleship is a ship we're all on. We sink, we sink together. We sail, we sail together.

Well I already typed alot and I need to get off this chair and go study. (:

2008-06-01T23:01:00.004+08:00

Time to put my life back on track. Put everything back in perspective.
This June hols, I need to plan for:
Services
Family time
SOW
BMT
Study time
Ministry
Time with friends
CG sessions
CG outings

When you put everything together, it's a very big "OH MAN I got no time."
I planned my week. Few changes here and there but I guess that's unavoidable. Okay, I'm making a decision to be on top of my life. Ha!

SOW starts tml. My sore throat better heal quickly..like now.. HAHA. I don't want to croak at SOW tml.. Drinking lots of liang teh!! Ming tian yao zhao qi chuang. Better sleep early. Haha..but got super A-LOT of things to do okay! Mmm..I must love liang teh although it's bitter. =PPPP

Let's talk about the camp alright? I'll feel like something's missing if I don't blog about it. It's quite a milestone. Camp took away a part of me and gave me something new. I must say that Zone F camp is loads of difference from Zone D camp. In many ways. One of them being that I feel older. In Zone D I'm so young loh. HAHA. And it's alot more crazy and fun. Oops. And Zhi Lin will agree with me that Jordan is cute. Hahahs. I'm so lazy to go and blog out everything. Ah. The bottomline is: I learnt lots. (:

Give me camp photos!! Rahh. (:

You opened up my eyes.
6 names.
6 things to do.

2008-05-26T23:53:00.003+08:00

Just watched the videos that Nic took while the 6 of us (Nic, Mu Ying, Valerie, Pei Jun, Fung Qi and I) were at the back of my dad's lorry. It's like super funny lah. I love D5 people. We're always laughing and crazy and everything. I love how we're so united. I love how we can read each others' minds. I love DEE-FIVE. ((:

Jieru was so funny la. Ok we sat on the pick up because there were many heavy boxes of Red Rain bottles to be brought home to give out to PRSS the following week. And then while we were boarding the lorry, Ivan and some B Zone people walked past with THEIR boxes of bottles, approaching the traffic light. AND THEN Jieru shouted over to Ivan something about "we got lorry eh, but you all don't have". LOL. It was super funny okay.

Some really funny lines while we were on the pick up: (imagine the wind blowing in our faces, the blurry lines of the road and all kinds of vehicles around us.)
Mu Ying: "This is so fun.. It's my first time sitting in a lorry!!"
Pei Jun: "Oh my goodness!"
Valerie: "Very ugly now, but neh-mind it's okay."
Fung Qi: *laughing and sputtering with hair in her face*
Mu Ying: "This is SO FUN.. So fun.."
Pei Jun: *echoes* "So fun.."
Everyone: "I'm building Your house for all generations.. I'm building Your house with an expectation.. We will see Your glory fall, in this house of miracles, as we stand together.."

It's super duper funny okay! I was laughing when I watched the video. HAHA. We siao one.. Yes and the point is, D5 people are really great. LOL.

2008-05-22T23:06:00.002+08:00

Love God, love people, love life.
I really thank God for my friends that He has put into my life. He chooses the right people for me, to enter into my life and grow me, mould and shape me. If you are reading this, you are my friend for a reason!! I love you. =)
So many things to reflect on. To meditate on. To just think about. And feel excited for. I'm happy for being me. Only I can enjoy and do what I do. I don't want to be someone else. (:

On a lighter note,
Jomain is funny. No, we are funny.
Ytd I called her on my way home as I was bored on the train.
The convo went like this:
Me: "Where are you now? I'm on the train home." (trying to arrange for us to meet so I can pass her Red Rain tickets.)
Jom: "Which station are you at?"
Me: "Kovan. Where are you?"
Jom: "I'm at Kovan!"
Me: "Huh, which part of Kovan? You want me to get off to go find you?"
Jom: "I just boarded the train!"
Me: *realisation struck* "laughs. We're on the same train eh! Which part of the train are you at?"
Jom: "Errmm..around the front part."
Me: "I also..!"
Jom: "What's your cabin number?"
Me: "72034. What's yours?"
Jom: "Same! Oh my gosh, we're in the same cabin. But I don't see you leh.. Are you sitting down or standing up?"
Me: "Sitting down."
Jom: "I still don't see you..wait arh..I walk first.. *pause* eh I saw you liao!"
-end of phone convo-
-start of laughter-

Hahaha. Isn't it just so exciting! I told Jom that perhaps God knew that I was lonely on the train so He sent her to accompany me! LOL. But she rebutted and said God sent me to accompany her. Wl. Hahha!
The scene was really funny la. Oh my. This is the first time so zhun see my good friend on same train one. Same cabin somemore. The timing is so accurate can. Haha!

See? Each one of you knows me and is in my life for a reason. Thank you for our friendship!! (:

2008-05-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

Was reading Ivan's blog and then there were all these Red Rain songs on his "iPod playlist" and then it reached this song called Inside Outside by Delirious. When it came to this part, every word was just pound out so impactful, so true.

You still captivate me, fascinate me.
You still captivate me, saturate me.
You still captivate me, liberate me.
You're all over me.

Yes the feeling is so amazing.
In awe that the words of a song can speak like that. (:

This is one big rocking blog that you gotta visit! http://whativansaiddd.blogspot.com

2008-05-12T21:27:00.009+08:00

Today's a really great day. I loved most of it.
Hung out with Ying Loo. Such a loooong time I've not hung out with her already. Although we are from same class. Kind of miss the times. 1st 2 lectures we were laughing & laughing throughout la. I guess that's what you get for sitting with Loo. She makes you laugh. And she laughs at her own stories. Hahaha. (:

Econs was totally mad alright. We decided to be loners and sit at the back of the class. Yup, just 2 people at the last row of tables. Look so extra! And it was funny trying to eat food in Miss Wong's class without her noticing. Grace saw through us and she said "FOOD" so loudly that half the class could hear. LOL. But Miss Wong is nice. She's really a fantabulous teacher that I like, 2nd after Miss Maryam. Haha. So discriminating. But still..

She saw me talking to Loo and then asked me "Zhenghui. Did you hear what I just said?"
Oh come on I wasn't listening to that last sentence though I have it at the back of my mind, still processing. So I honestly said "No."
AND THEN THE WHOLE CLASS LAUGHED.
Seriously. I don't know what's so funny. But they laughed. Haha.
I'm sorry Miss Wong.

Why Miss Wong is cute:
Loo and I were singing this cool Ice Kacang song. And we were at this part : "Each time I look into your eyes.." when Felise turned to look at us and heard everything! AND THEN SHE LAUGHED. That really made me and Loo laugh like crazy.
And then Miss Wong saw us laughing and said : "Ying Loo, I know you like to laugh at me la, but also must pay attention okay." That was the limit man. (Loo wasn't laughing at her in the first place.) Miss Wong is so cute that she got the whole class roaring in laughter. Hahaha. I love our class man.
( Miss Wong is my econs teacher. =X )

That's today's Just For Laughs. (:

2008-05-07T04:27:00.002+08:00

I just feel so refreshed although it is 4.27am. Haha.
Woke up at 3.10am and it has been exciting since.
Your love is so amazing. Your love amazes me. It amazes me. You remember me and hear my prayers. You care for me although I am not that close to You. I am not someone really great spiritually but You still love me and remember me and care for me. Nobody can ever love me like You do.
(:

And I worship You Lord
My life in You restored
Here is my heart, make it Your sanctuary
For nobody else, but Jesus only

You are faithful and true
Glorious Lord
All my life it is You I adore
You touched my soul
Completed my world
I surrender to You

I feel like I'm one step closer to knowing You.
This marks my 1st time blogging at 4.27am.

2008-05-04T22:57:00.003+08:00

AI was cool. Affluence to Influence. Even the name of the conference is cool la. (:
Dr Clemen Chiang, Nicole Yee and Yeo Mui Sung were phenomenal. Power-packed mind-boggling stuff. Never-before-seen-or-heard. (: SUCCESS WITHIN SHORTEST TIME POSSIBLE. Now we have the know-hows. Heart of God Church. A different generation. Simply awesome. =D The marketplace is going to go BAH-BOOM with many rich christians around soon. Look out! HAHAH.

Loving my life more and more. (I didn't say I like JC life.) Lol.
(:
After spending just that 3-mrt-stop duration of time with someone, I've decided. I'm gonna live my life differently. How is it that u can just tell that a person is different just by spending less than even 15min with that person? Isn't it phenomenal? Good testimony. It's not pressure, it's more of release.

ECP outing today. It's just a time-out from all that JC crap. And I mean it. I de-stressed. Weekday = headaches (literally), weekends = major recharge + prevention of turning insane. Haha. What could I say to describe the beautiful scenery at Bedok Jetty? Wonderful God we have. Beautiful scenery cannot be coincidental. Praise You. (:

Moo's sunglasses were reeeally big. And darkish PINK. Hahah. Zhi Lin's were nice. (:
Peijun, me, Zhi Lin, Val and Moo were taking pics with the sunglasses la. COOL okay!

And, my superstar, do u need sunglasses? (:

2008-04-21T22:32:00.003+08:00

Sick day.
Down with a reeeally bad cold.
--> running nose + running eyes + phlegm = yucks!
Hahah. But I'm fine really. Heh. Thanks for classmates' concern, I love all you people okay!
And then. Benjy picked that idea for the potato salad for the Mardi Gras carnival. Let's prove everyone else wrong and make the best potato salad yes? Ahah.

There's this really bad lame joke I've been wanting to blog about since 34234689 million years ago. Hahah. It all started when Sabrina passed by me in school and told me this lame joke.
"What's up?"
Answer: Ceiling.
And then as if that wasn't lame enough, Ying Loo had to add on:
"What's up?"
My age.
"What's down?"
My grades.
OKAY MAYBE IT DOESNT SOUND FUNNY HERE. But you gotta hear it in school man. It's the lamest, most speechless joke ever!!
Rawwrhhs.

Oh yes. And about Sunday's birthday celebration for Pastor Lia.
It's amazingly superlificiously funny and creative and exciting!! =DD
I'm sure everyone had a blast laughing and laughing and ..laughing.
But also the really best part was the part when Pastor Lia told us the story of Matt Redman and why he composed the song The Heart of Worship.

It really touched my heart. And we worshipped God with that song. God's presence was so strong. Pastor Lia prayed for all the worship leaders. And then I cried. I could really feel that our pastors have a heart for raising up people. Seeing these people who used to be so ordinary, rise up and serve God, it really made me cry.

The song The Heart of Worship was just so powerful. Especially after knowing the true meaning and story behind it. Singing it over and over again just made me want to sing it again. It's really beautiful. Pastor Lia asked all of us to pray for her mum's health. She was just this lady with beautiful ivory hair sitting in a wheelchair. And we prayed. Pastor Lia prayed over the microphone in chinese and sang a chinese worship song. The whole scene, the whole atmosphere was just saturated with God's presence and it was wonderful. I felt so in touch and truly impacted deep deep deep. It has changed me and I'll never really be the same again..

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

2008-04-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

Today was quite a bad day lol..woke up from morning nap with a throbbing headache.
Hmmm no good. :(
.: My tone may sound slightly emo / sian. Apologise for that. (:
Glad I talked to val.
And I'm sure that prayer will work. It's the only thing we can really do.

During service just now, I was so cold that I was shivering.
Hahaha. First-time experience.
Coupled with the aircon, the fan was blowing directly at me, super COLD.
Haha. But during worship it was okay. Though standing up was supposed to be more cold cos I can't huddle up, but it wasn't. It was great. I was rather surprised that I wasn't shivering anymore or anything. But just plugged in. Love my God. (:

I really felt that day was so insightful. Although this happened quite a long time ago, I can still remember that kind of awkward feeling. First time I could really tell the difference between knowing someone and knowing about someone. It's like I know quite a lot about you but we're so distant. Haha. The feeling is weird. Strange. Unfamiliar. Foreign.
You're just like those pop stars on TV that people know a lot about, but don't really know.
This is getting nowhere. (:

2008-04-18T00:13:00.001+08:00

All I want to say is, I now stare at my guitar and smile. (:
It has beautiful strings. (:

2008-04-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

My timing for 2.4km mock NAPFA was 15.10min.
The timing to pass is 17.30 so it's quite reasonable lah. Heh.
I realised getting older means getting less fit, not fitter. ARGH. Lols.
Each round around the track = 400m so we had to run 6 rounds (so demoralising! >:( ...)
Joanne's timing was 12 something. So pro lor. I saw her complete her 2.4 while I was just starting on my 5th round. How sian can that get. HAHA.
Ying Loo and Le Xuan completed at 15.27.. coz they run together. wahaahh.
I hereby pronounce that I hate running. (:

But. Being a good SS student (ex), I shall bring out the alternative side of the viewpoint. Running has its benefits too. (oh wow really?!) After reaching church for singing rehearsal, Pansiri said that it's good that I just ran 2.4 coz it'd open up my throat or something. Then can sing more clearly, supposedly. HAHA. Good lor..

AND YES JOANNE YOU ARE REFLECTIVE! HAHAHA. Believe me. Hope you read this man.

And today's song is Glorify.
Super lovely.

Glorify
Glorify
Let Your name be lifted up and glorified
Let the earth tremble at Your name
Let Your name be lifted up and glorified

Into Your hands I commit my life
Day by day as a living sacrifice
Who am I, that You would care for me
I glorify the One who died for me

And just repeat and repeat the lyrics. It's very beautiful. ((:

2008-04-07T23:01:00.003+08:00

Met Pei Jun at about 5pm at tamp library. To study.
But like. We talked alot la. But also got study k!
I need to study 3 hours every day. Every day!! ^^
And also.
I want to spend more time with You too.
Today, me and Pei Jun was like laughing crazy coz we have so many common problems in school. One of us didnt even need to finish our sentence and the other would know and have the same sentiments and just start laughing and saying "YAR YAR YAR" over the laughter. Lols. Like almost everything. Results and blah. Hahah must buck up la.. Reminds me of buckyball. Ha nvm. Studies ah studies..

Then later went Jom's house at 7.30pm. To study.
Didnt really talk much bcoz we were much more disciplined.
But somehow the laughing disease still came back while I was testing her for her oral exam. And
Jom was just staring at me laughing then she like, give me that "Why are you laughing" face.

The funny thing was, both of them wanted me to buy bubble tea on my way to meet them! But Pei Jun remembered but Jom didnt. Ha.
Went home at 10pm. Played guitar awhile then now blogging! (:

Just quiet on the inside.
And tears falling.
Can feel them rolling down my cheeks.
Can feel them dripping off my chin.
Just singing to You.
And then more tears.
Your presence so strong and saturated.
That was how powerful the prayer meeting was.

2008-04-07T08:12:00.003+08:00

It hurts to see people missing out on the big picture. Still being lost when you're just inches away to your alternative life. Inches away to unlocking the best destiny for your life that you can live.

Sometimes it just takes a little bit more. It takes a little perseverance. A little boldness. Just to remove those stones. And take that step in that destiny-defining moment. Truly destiny-defining. I may have trembling hands, but I will still do it.

2008-04-05T09:21:00.002+08:00

Love the song Breathe.
If you have, send to me ok?
=)
Going to Nike shop with mummy later. Like in a few mins.
And then to church to study with pj!
And then service! YESYESYES.
I look forward to weekends!
Refresh and recharge. =)

You are my God
Closer to me than the air that I breathe
All that I am
Formed by Your word
I'm made in Your hands
Captivated, by Your beauty
Falling deeper in You

Breathe into my soul
Spirit of God
Fill my life with Your presence
Hide under Your shadow
Dwell in Your secret place
It's You I long to know

2008-03-31T23:26:00.002+08:00

Lol.
JC life is so different.
Everybody thinks it's normal to be in a bgr.
Haha. I didn't do my math hw.
Then Mrs Tag was checking our hw.
When she came to me, I said I didn't do.
And then she was like "You take 5th A level subject issit?" --> I was thinking that she meant I took alot of subjects that's why cannot cope.
I replied, "no.."
And then she said "The 5th A level subject is Patology. You take Patology?" (Pa-tor-logy, in other words, BGR)
I was like, "NO."
Hahaha. And then I pointed to Joanne who was sitting beside me. Cos she also never do hw. HAHA. And then Mrs Tag asked Joanne in a very excited voice "WA, YOU TAKE PATOLOGY IS IT?"
Walaoooo..
HAHAHAHA.
And and and..
Out of the whole class, got like zillions of people never do hw, but only me and Joanne suay enough to get caught.
She was like, "You all better go back and do, I'm going to check both of your work TOMORROW AH."
Haha so sad right.
Haix I really duno what to do with math.
I'm lagging like millions of lightyears behind. Haha.
Need to buck up, pull up my socks, and ATTACK MATH!
Ok sorry, I shan't attack Mrs Tag anymore, I shall attack math. Wahaha.

Ytd went home from church with Jomain. We stayed until like 10pm to chiong schoolwork la. I think it was quite productive for me. So I didn't regret (: And then and then. Something really weird happened and we were both quite freaked out. Haha. But I guess the person is quite harmless la. It was funny how we planned our approach.

And on the bus we talked alot alot of things. Haha. Really like share deep things. Woah I didn't know she was so mature HAHA. Sorry Jomain. I guess the people on the bus really had a good time listening to our convo. It was rather insightful and etc, ya know. I was half-conscious of the people on the bus but I didn't really care. I just wanted to share. And we were talking and talking till the last parting moment we still haven't finish our insightful convo. After I got onto LRT and we separated, she called me and we continued on phone. Lol. Can't bear just to end halfway I guess. Haiya. The "I tell you, you don't tell people okay?" cycle better stop here.

2008-03-29T09:54:00.003+08:00

Here I am a sinner
Broken and in need of You
Take my life, and
Wash my fears away

For You are the great I am
Rest assured I feel Your hand
Holding me until
The darkness clears

God of mercy
Show Your mighty hand
God of wonders
Breathe on us again

God Almighty
Change my dark to light
God of passion
Gave Your blood as mine

You're my king, and
All consuming fire
Strip away the flesh, and
Take me higher

2008-03-24T18:10:00.002+08:00

Yay guitaring rawks. haha. I used to hate guitaring. It seemed just too hard. but I'm still really bad at it now. but I just feel an urge to pick up my guitar and practise every time I see it lying around in my room. even with practice, I'm still bad and lousy at it. but maybe gradually less..? I hope Elaine will teach me how to change strings. yay. HAHA. the rusty strings have been plaguing/haunting me for like so long.

It is so tarrying now.
It is so tarrying now can?
Sometimes it just feels like everybody else has more headstart into your vision than you yourself. Everybody else has all the criteria, abilities, circumstances and connections, all ready to jump straight into your vision although it is not theirs. Everyone but you. Sometimes it just seems like you were not really made for that vision. Oh how small and insignificant you seem. How long it will be for the time of your vision to be fulfilled. But there will always be that spark of hope. You are the spark of hope to me. Thankyou so much.

WAIT.
WAIT WAIT WAIT.
WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT.
WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT.
WAIT.

2008-03-22T09:14:00.002+08:00

It's my DAY today! Woohooo!
Thank you to all of you who overwhelmed me with your messages. Lol.
To be honest, I woke up this morning and checked my handphone and upon seeing so many messages, I was so lazy to read them that I went back to sleep. Lol. You guys are awesome la.

Anyways, even after one day of easter bonanza, I've still not had enough! I want more more!! Heart of God church ROCKS. I tell u it does. HAHAHA. I'm mad from all the KTV-ing yesterday. WOOHOOOO.

Took communion yesterday. Wonderful. I love communion. Let's remember how Jesus died on the cross for our sake. That strength and bravery is .. out of this world. (:

Could I ever thank You for
What You did at Calvary
When You bled and died for me

Could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay

2008-03-21T01:36:00.003+08:00

God's presence is so convicting.
Convicting. Convicting.
It's been a few times this year already.
It's the word that comes everytime I think about God's presence.
It's a kind of strange, constant conviction.
Strange as in I never felt it before.
Constant as in it never fails to come once in a while.
Especially for this year.
Like even when you're down and out and feeling discouraged, suddenly it comes and lifts you up and gives you a new destination kind of thing.
Like even when you're not in the best of moods, suddenly it comes and cheers you up and you just feel so joyful and want to spread your joy to others.
Like even when you're feeling lazy and immovable, suddenly it comes and mobilises you to do something and to do something right now.
I don't know!
It's just something like that.
Hahah.
I love it man. It gives me wings, not red bull. HAHA.

By the way, my new CCAs are Journalism Club and Leo Club (interact club). I so love the slackness. I'll have much more time to do other things.

Woohooo! Elaine is going to teach me guitar! Yay! Cant wait!
If you're reading this, Elaine, thank you again and I really appreciate it! =)

Easter's so exciting!! I can't begin to describe what's going to happen. Oh my. So being lazy, lemme just copy and paste some parts of the email on what's going on in Heart of God church!

" This time, Easter is really BIG! For the first time ever in Heart of God church, we are having a big Easter event – our very own first carnival! It's going to be an exciting time for everyone, with food, games, activities, music and a great atmosphere for everyone to have fun, hang out and get excited!

Activities wise, we've got so many activities lined up that we're sure everyone would want to try everything! If your people are looking for excitement we have air-hockey, foosball, two full fledged joystick arcade games as well as many other board games. What's more, these games are going at 20cents per game, so feel free to play your hearts out! And if you and your people just want to hang out, we have a real live KTV lounge! We also have DJs on each day with different playlists of 200 songs to pick from, as well as a photobooth for you to take pictures. On Saturday we also cater to the families with balloon twisting and face painting for free!

Up at the alfresco we have food galore at really cheap prices! Premium sausages will be going at cost price, chicken wings for $1, pizzas at $1.50, garlic bread, nachos with cheese, premium sausages going at cost price as well as drinks from the café, going at special prices of $3 for the cold coffees as well as $2.50 for 8 oz. hot coffee drinks! The food is so nice that everyone would skip breakfast and dinner the night before to eat at Heart of God church. SO DO EAT YOUR LUNCH IN CHURCH OVER THE 3 BIG DAYS!

Everything will be happening all over church at the same time, on the 12th and 13th floors so wherever you go, there will be such a buzz and excitement in the air – It'll be a one-stop entertainment centre before the Easter services. So lets make this easter a memorable and meaningful one! "

Sounds exciting right?!! The 3 BIG days are this Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Anyone who wants to come with me can contact me anytime between now to sunday morning. Woohoo!! I'm hopping urgent for tomorrow (fri) to have real fun! =D

2008-03-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

I just realised it is 5 more days to my birthday.
Lollll.
Oh.
And the dream was so real I can't stop thinking about it.
Arrrrghh.

Having headache now due to GP essay. I hope I can complete tonight! Jiayou me! HAHAHHA. Or better, as Ying Loo and I were discussing, get fever and then tml can pon sch, stay at home to complete the pile of homework! Ahhhhhhhh-men. Hahah =)

2008-03-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

Love Saturdays and Sundays!
Hahaha.
Oh yeah man. 'ya know.
We've grown so much as a church.
First class spiritual atmosphere indeed. (:
It brought up something that was on my heart for quite long.
I don't know how long it will take.
I don't know what will become of it.
But Habakkuk 2:2-3 totally encourages me.

Had a dream during my 2-hour nap just now.
I guess it was really awakening.
It shook me so hard.
It got me thinking.
I choose to make a decision.

2008-03-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

Thursday

Class outing!
I ended up with only Ying Loo, Le Xuan, Joanne and Shan Yan.

Went to Vivo walk walk abit then to P.S. arcade. Played the basketball dunking game which was quite lousy HAHAHHA. Anyways me and joanne challenged each other on the Para para dance machine. It's the first time we played leh. Oh man. We were both lousy. LOL. But she was lousier. =P Hahahs. All of us took neoprints! My first neoprint of the year and first neoprint with JC friends~ Woooox.

Felise joined us after that. I bought cinnamon sugar pretzel at Auntie Anne's. It's super nice can. And joanne said that Auntie Anne sounds like her name lidat. Haa. So lameee!! Shan Yan bought sour cream pretzel and Le Xuan bought the cheese one. Ehh I think cinnamon sugar still rules them all. Ahhaha.

This is the first time ever that I watched movie alone with one other person. All of them didnt want to watch movie so being sporty, me and joanne went ahead with the movie while the rest went home! LOL. The show was Spiderwick. And admit it, IT'S SUPERBLY GOOD. =D If there's any movie this season that satisfied me, it's Spiderwick. Serious. Even Leap Years didnt satisfy me although it was really good too. You know why? Cos..

#1, Spiderwick's plot links perfectly. It didnt have any obvious loopholes or loose ends.
#2, Spiderwick has great animation and effects!
#3, Spiderwick's storyline is really engaging and it will have you on the edge of your seat.

Spiderwick totally reminds me of Jumanji. And it's a really great movie. Especially for fantasy fans like joanne and me. Woohoooo man. 11 claps for Spiderwick! Rockerrr show.

Friday

Met Pei Jun and Ai Li at church to study. Didn't study much. As expected. Hmmm. I'm gonna chiong tml I don't care! Can't wait already! ALOT OF HOMEWORK. Driving me mad. Hahahs. But still ok, I'm not stressed or what. I don't get headaches. Haha. That's because I don't stress myself. Though I think by now there should be stress but I'm deliberately blocking it away. Haa.

Before going to church I went to buy Chipster Original chips! And chocolate milk tea! Haa. I'm sucha pig. Anyways they were studying outside admin office so it's like I'm so bad to bring food up there. So we moved to cafe area! Woohooo. And then Ai Li lamed with me and she left! I went up to Ops room with Chek Yeow to watch a Youtube video on the band song Noah's Ark and to discuss about the price of the new horn I'm gonna buy. Heh. So exciting!!

Had orchestra at 5pm. Oh yeah. During the ending prayer, Lisa prayed that we would not just play notes of a song and forget everything it's all about, not forget the whole meaning but go back and meditate on what it means to really worship God with our instrument and everything. Wow. I want to know man. It's been mentioned quite a lot of times before but I still don't grasp it fully yet. What's the difference between playing a song and worshipping God with the song? What's the difference between a normal song and an anointed song? What's the difference in motive and heart? I know there's a huge difference man. I got the gist but I still don't get it too. I wanna experience it myself. The whole difference. Haa. That'll be so great. Haha.

2008-03-13T00:14:00.002+08:00

Am guitaring now.
Hahahs. Moo taught me a few chords at the chalet.
I want to learn! Hm. Moo is giving me the link so I can self learn from the internet! =D
Anyways the chalet was super fun okay. It should be one of the best chalets I ever went to! Hehh. The food was lovely. I liked the potato salad most. Yummie!
After chalet we went to Burger King! And then to tamp to watch The Leap Years. The show was not bad! ((:
Hahah. Actually we wanted to go to church to play Captain's Ball in the big big auditorium. Budden by the end of the movie, only had about 7 people left. So we went to val's house instead - ate, slept and watched A Cinderella Story. Val's house is so overflowing with food man! ICE CREAM. INSTANT NOODLES. CAMPBELL SOUP. We picnic there la. And watch show. But in the end all of us fell asleep. So cute right. HAHAHAHHA.

I feel so bored blogging about daily life. But somehow it's just interesting to look back and re-read my old entries and laugh at whatever I write. Haa. Anyways I got so many things left at val's house from last time leh. Sandals, clothes, just stuff. Her house like become my house already. Hahah.

Yayy. Can D5 pleeeease have study outing every week? (=

You know. Throughout the whole March holiday I only have this Friday to study. With peijun. Gonna ask more people. YEAAHHH. Study more more. I'm a big fat slacker. (And Jomain will gasp at this.)

I'm currently addicted to reading Ivan's blog. LOL. Even at the chalet I had a craving to read his blog. It's just so insightful and nice and fun and real and everything mixed up together. And sometimes it can be so relevant and relational. (: I'm a loyal blog-reader okay. Yay. Hey Ivan, maybe you should just blog a list of your blog's fans. It'll be super long. Hahaha. Doubt you'll read this anyways.

Yes yes yes I'm blogging this song. It's great. Lovely. Beautiful.

God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o'er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace

On this altar I've written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

God of my forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice, redeemed my soul

God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honour will always be
To serve my Lord and King

God of my all I surrender
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown

Nothing matters when You're here with me
In the end just to hear You say "Well done"
Bowing before Your throne

God of my forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice, redeemed my soul

God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honour will always be
To serve my Lord and King

Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

2008-03-11T00:59:00.002+08:00

Hahahh.
I don't know why I'm blogging this too.
But I think I can be real in my own blog.
One of the most irritating things that you can ever experience is that someone thinks you like them even though you don't.
Awww. Come on man.
Like when I walk into the same place as you and you happen to be there, you think that I deliberately walked there just to be near you!?
Haa. Just want you to know that sometimes circumstances and people will influence where I go. And not everywhere you see me means that I'm stalking you.
Hah.
And when I talk to you, you're so cold?
I don't even know why the sudden change.
I can't even look you straight in the eye now.
You know actually there was nothing. And then you started acting all weird. Oh well..
I'm sorry I gave you the wrong idea then. But what did I do? =/

That aside, I feel like one of my friends needs a breakthrough.
Ahhh devil. Just want to let you know I won't let you have your way. I won't believe your lies. I'm not going to be set back by just a little thing like that. Nothing's gonna stand in my way. Don't play because God is greater. (:
I prayed for him. The whole thing just flowed. I didn't even need to think of what to pray. Holy Spirit You're amazing (: And at the end of it, I felt more faith!!
Ohhh YEAH. Something IS going to happen. ((:

2008-03-08T23:11:00.004+08:00

Hahah.
Duno what to blog about nowadays.
There's just too much to say.
And I'm lazy to pen it down.
Hahaha.
Anywaysss.. Zone D chalet's coming up!! I'm so loving it mann. Looking forward! Hahah.

I joined Journalism Club & Leo Club. Both are slacker clubs. Lol.

Yet another area of my life to surrender in.
It's a neverending journey.

God of mercy
Show Your mighty hand
God of wonder
Breathe on us again

You're my king, and
All consuming fire
Heaven shakes
Your might tears up the sky

Surrender all
Surrender all
I'm dead to sin
Alive within
Surrender all
Surrender all

God Almighty
Change my dark to light
God of passion
Gave Your blood as mine

You're my king, and
All consuming fire
Strip away the flesh
And take me higher

Surrender all
Surrender all
I'm dead to sin
Alive within

2008-03-04T22:20:00.002+08:00

Chem test today, bio test tml.
When will I have time to catch up with my schoolwork?
March hols?
But it's packed almost to the brim.
Hahah I gotta plan plan plan!

Anyway like I said in the last post, chem test is study but still fail.
Hahaha.
The topics tested were Mole Concept & Atomic Structure.
So, thinking that I was quite stable in Mole Concept, I only studied Atomic Structure.
In the end, 3 out of 4 qns were on Mole Concept. And although I think I did well on the Atomic Structure part, I totally flunk the test coz the Mole part was "as-see-are-yee-doubleu-yee-dee"!

It's okay.
I shall do the extra homework that comes as a consequence of failing the test.
=(

It's insane.
All I think about is studies nowadays.
Hahah.
I hate studying actually.
Who does?
But I'm gonna keep on keeping on I guess. =)

Yayzo gonna read Mettle now!
Bye man!

2008-03-03T22:34:00.002+08:00

So cool.

Look at Valerie's 16 Feb post :
i was just praying when this phrase crossed my mind:
'to see others through the eyes of God'

Look at my 16 Feb post :
Help me to love others and see them as how You see them, not how I see them.

Wohhh!!
God is so amazing when He speaks. (:

Sometimes all it takes is an open heart, a yearning heart, a heart desiring for more of Him, a heart willing to change.
And then His presence came.
Oh sweet.

I'm just gonna be random.
Considering that my chem test is tml and I've yet to study much. (but I've started. >.< )
I bought a green hairband.
It totally matches my sch uniform!
Hahah.
Maybe I'm gonna cut my hair short so I can wear my green hairband!
But the thought is kind of weird..

Endtimes Bible Study was ORE-SSSERM!
Every part about it was interesting man.
I can't imagine what it will be like. I hope I will see it.
Hahah.

I'm still thinking of my chem test tml. Make it or break it. Study or fail. Or rather, study but still fail. x.x
*flips notes without truly understanding*
Sigh. I need a better study plan.
And. More sleep.

((:

2008-03-02T09:21:00.002+08:00

Pride. Bitterness. Anger. Laziness. Rebellion.
Crucify them.
Make every heart a new creation.
Come into this generation.

There's so much more to crucify.
It's a neverending journey. (:
And it's definitely not easy.
But we're never gonna go back to that dead end.
We're gonna make this generation Yours.

Change.
It's not an overnight thing.
Self-control. Discipline.
It's not easy.
Break.
Something has to break.
Something has to change inside of me.
Struggling.
But surely He will pull me through.

2008-02-26T21:27:00.002+08:00

Hey somebody out there..
If you see this, will you tell me which CCA I should join?

Leo Club (do community work)
Library Club
Creative Writing & Journalism Club
Guitar Club
Symphonic Band

It's so hard to choose. Hahah. Gotta submit application by 7 Mar.
I'm going for guitar practice tml! LOL. Actually I pon so many times alr shouldnt have the face to go back..but yeah anything laa. Hahaha.
I'll say I like guitar club best and I do want to join.
But.
The commitment level is gonna be so high.
I don't know!!
AHHHH.
Gonna ask first. (:

I also dunno why I went school today. Hahah.
Only had 2 lectures today. And both are just introduction, dun even have formal lessons.
But after school like about half of our class went to Safra! =D
Played pool. Won 1 match & lost 1 match.
I lost to Bryan! Urghs. LOL.
Bought the $2.50 fries there.
So waste money right. Hahahha.

And then the girls played Spot the Difference using the touch-screen thingy. It's great fun man! Ginn Min is so sharp! She spots differences like at 1 difference per second. Hahahha. Okay that's exaggeration. But she is good. (:
After that Bryan, Benjamin, the guys joined us and we played onnn.

I suddenly rmb sth Grace said that was quite funny. We were just on the bus talking about who looks like rich person.
Grace: "Aiya I'm supposed to be rich la! You know, they use my name so many times in the Bible they should pay me!!"
o.O

Hahah. Anyways, Joanne and Jun Hao didnt join us for class outing la. Joanne went with her OAC friends to watch Juno. Jun Hao went to watch L.
Aiyerrr.

Bytheway.
Joanne! Don't worry la! Just the plastic cover only, don't kan chiong! Sure can find de! =))

Hahah.
Can I say something? I really love Lisa alot alot. She is like a mentor to me. I respect her man. She's helped me a lot. Sometimes even my own insecurities about sch stuff. She just totally pulls me up whenever I feel like I'm stuck. And she always gives me hope. Thank you Lisa. =)

OKAY I'M SO GOING TO SLEEP NOW! :))

2008-02-26T21:23:00.002+08:00

And when I touch Your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel You so

'Cause You're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes
It's You I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone

:))

I want to begin to realise that You are with me everywhere I go.
I want to know it.
And then I would be so much more different.

2008-02-25T01:27:00.002+08:00

I was just reading the Harvest Times, an article by Pastor Cho Yonggi, and I came across a sentence that impacted me lots.
It says something along the lines of "People always tend to think that the Holy Spirit only knows your innermost secrets, thoughts and feelings. But the fact is, He is much much more close to you, He is closer to you than the very heart that beats in your chest cavity."
Oh wow.
Amazed.

2008-02-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

So many things to say. =)
Valerie got into nyjc! I'm so happy for her!!!!!
Prayers answered. =DD

Friday
Had CG.
The Beginnings of Leadership.
Grow in spirit. Grow in wisdom. Be about our Father's business.
Yeahh. You gotta hold on!!
I see my leaders and I'm inspired.
How they can just keep running nonstop despite being sleep-deprived, entertainment-deprived, pleasures-deprived. I admire that strength. I want to have it.

Saturday
Oh nooo.
Jieru had a bad fall at the MRT station & she got hospitalised.
But fortunately she got discharged! Mei shi. =)

Woke up early early at 7.30am. Met Jomain for breakfast at 8.30am. Actually supposed to be 8am, but we both couldnt make it in time (expected). Hahah!
We ate a mac's hotcakes breakfast and regretted it. Lol. Shared some personal stories with each other. After that we went to my hse to study! Quite fruitful actually. I had momentum. Heh. Was doing cell structure.
Went to Jomain's hse together after that cos she needed to change! She chapalam anyhow wear to my hse. Lolllll.
While I was at her hse. That's when I received news that Jieru was hospitalised.

Service was great! Pst shared so many stories again. I love the stories. Truly, love can only be shown/expressed through story after story of how people love other people. It's not a philosophy, but it has to be applied. =)

Sunday
Mum's birthday!
Went out with her and dad to Pizza Hut for lunch.
So long nv go out with them. GUILTY. Ha.
I think it's fun joking around with my parents. I love laughing with them! Haha. It's great to have a happy family man. Just look at pastors' family. But my family not that level yet. Haha. I hope I'll make the difference. I need to stop being my old self. And be my new self.

Went for service anyway.
Hehe. I'm glad that mum allowed me to go! And she didnt insist on hogging my whole day. =P
I reached church 2.45pm. o.O
The altar call was amazing. (:

Anyways after service we completed Jieru's Get Well card that Lambert drew a Pooh bear on. It's NICE okay. And Lynette's birthday card! Hehe.
Our CG decided to love creatively and surprisingly, so we bought an apple for Jieru too! (An apple a day keeps the doctor away.)
We were like, "Jieru, surprise!" *gives the card* "And wait, there's another gift!" *gives the apple*
Oh but it stopped at 2 gifts, not 4. =X
She was uber-elated after receiving the gifts. (:
Lynette was jubilant at receiving her card too. Budden she was like, "What's the card for?"
And the reply, "Birthday."
Then she said, "Oh." in a very comical way!!!!!! Hahah. Cos her birthday was supposed to be more than a month ago. =P

YESSSS. Orchestra is gonna play Noah's Ark! The song is like SUPERFAB. And the french horn parts in it are SUPERFAB TOO. Heheh!

Went home with Jomain, Ming Han, Zhi Guo, Elaine, Yvonne & Elizabeth!
Sat beside Elaine on the bus & we talked abt guitar, names, shoes and people! (:
You know Elaine's full name is Lin Yi Ling Elaine. And then she says her name sounds like 0-1-0-1-0. LOL! And then Ming Han was so bad, he said that Elizabeth's name is like insulting Elaine like that. Cos Elizabeth sounds like Yi Ling Zhen Ben (Yi Ling so stupid). Aiyoooo. =Pp
Jomain was rather disgruntled that I "pangseh-ed" her to sit with Elaine. Lol. Budden she came to sit after that. And we were sian-ing on the bus. I was telling Jom about me dreaming that I was drunk. Lols.

Pollyna says she cant imagine me being drunk and violent. HAHA. Well that's abt it. (:

Create in me
A new heart
One that follows You
Place in me
A deep desire
To know You as I'm known

Set my feet
In Your ways
To live worthy of Your call
Draw me near to You, Lord
Every single day

I just, want to be
More like You
Walk with You beside me, Lord
Won't You be my guide?
Place Your heart inside my soul
A heart that's ever true
One that's after You

2008-02-23T00:14:00.002+08:00

I love to type.
Haha.
I just vented everything.
If you're wondering how I vented everything considering there's not much typed above, I just typed super alot and deleted everything.
Hahahha.
I'm talking to Jomain now. On the phone. And I'm feeling very happy. Haahhaha. She asked me to say one! Hehhe.
Haha. You know, I want to blog more more! But I got nothing to say. So sad. Lols.

And this whole post is crappped-out. =P

2008-02-21T21:25:00.004+08:00

I keep dreaming mannn.
Hahah.
I enjoy dreams.
Especially early morning ones.
They are full of drama I dunno why.
Hahaha.
Dreams give inspirations for storylines. =)

Lol. I deleted the short story. It's too emo. I was just trying to create a story out of the song Everywhere. Haha. It's quite fake ahhh.. But it's just random inspiration. Hahaha. The last line was comedy man.

Okay. I just discovered today that there's really alot alot to A level syllabus! OHMAN. I need to buck up and pull up my socks! Need to really sit down and study. SELF-DISCIPLINE. Ahhh. I don't like studying at all but I am gonna do it man. I need to feel the satisfaction of completing one whole chapter. Like understand thoroughly. I need to love learning! =)
Math. Econs. Biology. Chemistry. Here I come~

2008-02-20T17:34:00.002+08:00

I'm beginning to love TJ uniform!
Haha.
What?! The ugly sai-coloured GREEN uniform that everybody hates?
But EHH.
There is beauty to the TJ uniform okay.
I'm just not prepared to write a 300-word essay on it. (:
Hahah!
I mean. The tie just totally rawks can!! (:
Yayzo.
I bought my first set today! (: (:

Since v day, about 10 people added me on msn. YAY.
And one of them is Ren Hao, my PAE orientation clan leader!!
OMGOSH. I cant believe it. Hahahah. He's such a da ren wu can.. But of course, please dun misunderstand.
I've yet to get all my OGLs' msn. I want so badly to talk to them on msn. Haha. I'll ask them next time I see them in school.

Zheng Hui loves TJ uniform!
And she's wearing TJ polo tee now!
Hahahha.

You light my way, every day
You help me see, what I can be

2008-02-17T22:21:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's wrong with me.
So confusing.
Sometimes things are not as simple as they seem on the surface.
Oh well.
I don't like this complicated world.
Why . ?
Of all people.
I hope the whole thing'll pass soon.

Everywhere by Michelle Branch.
Lovelleh song.
It was played in 2006 Hearts Awards for a dance by Su Wan. (if anyone still remembers)

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there

Chorus:
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
(repeat chorus)

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath it's you I breathe
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

Haha.
It's really great to be back in church for service. AFTER TWO LOOOONG WEEKS. I missed pastors. They went overseas for so long. Haha. Pastor How talked about their holiday in Sydney. Where life is really slow. Even the mosquitoes are slow. LOL. He was really funny man. Pastor How really scores high in humour. (: The part about the mutant pink roses was SUPER FUNNY. It had me laughing like siao person. HAHAHAH.
And LOVING EXPRESSIVELY AND VERBALLY.
LOVING SURPRISINGLY AND CREATIVELY.
So many ways to express love.
Love someone the way they want to be loved. Be creative! (:

You, only You can save my soul
All my brokenness made whole.

2008-02-17T01:55:00.000+08:00

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

http://www.blogthings.com/doyouhaveatypeapersonalityquiz/">Do You Have a Type A Personality?

2008-02-16T13:22:00.002+08:00

I still want Your presence.

And I surrender all to You
'cos when I'm weak, You are strong
You're my feet when I can't move on
You're the light in the dark
You're the whisper inside my heart.

Beautiful.
What am I without You?
There's no one else I can turn to.
There's no one else who knows me better.
Help me to see myself as how You see me, not how others see me.
Help me to love others and see them as how You see them, not how I see them.
See people as people and not as trees.

2008-02-15T21:34:00.002+08:00

I didn't know lock-and-lock boxes were so cool.
Oh my.
I put my prawn rolls inside without touching them for like 1 week plus. And they still haven't lou feng! GREAT MAN. hahah. i love prawn rolls. but they're unhealthy. ):
I love potato chips too. --> Chipster Hot 'n' Spicy!!
Ahh.
I'm a food junkie. =)
Aiyo.

And I didn't know V Day was such a big thing in JC. I seriously haven't received as many V Day presents as this year. I like how our class guys are so gracious, they bought heart-shaped balloons for all the girls in class. So nice right. Haha. TJ is a nice-people school I realised. =)
Ying Loo is so funnaye. She asked me what I want for Valentine's. Then I said anything. THEN SHE REALLY GO AND BUY ANYTHING. Hahah. I mean the drink. She bought Anything and Whatever for me.
The message she wrote on the Anything drink can:
Qn: Do you want to be my gurl-fren?
Ans: Anything.
The message she wrote on Whatever drink can:
Only you can drink, cannot give to other people, because I cast love spell le.
Whatever~

Hahah! So cute!! I was laughing when I read that.

I love my OG mates! They're sweeeeeeeeeeet!
Yi Shu bought a green froggie purse for me for V Day. It's SUPER SUPER CUTE. You should see it man. Haha. So thoughtful.
Dong Ying bought a green Puma pencil case for me. Awww. Thanks girl! I've been using my old pencil case since Pri 5. VERY LONG RIGHT. Hahahahah.
They just happen to both buy green things for me.
And I just happen to like green this season. (:
But I'll still love them unconditionally. I love them still even if they don't buy so nice presents for me.

Watched P.S. I Love You with my CG (connect group) on V Day. PLEASE don't watch that show unless you're like above 20 or something. The middle part bored me to tears. Haha. No, it bored me to sleep. (: And somemore the cinema seat is so comfy! I can lay my head left or right also comfy leh! =X
That explains how I fell asleep.
After the show, I discovered that half the CG felt like sleeping or slept during the movie. Haha. Waste my money leh. I missed out the whole chunk of the middle part. Haix.
Anyway, I skipped my class movie outing to go CG movie outing. Haha. You know in TJ, we call our classes CG also ma. It means civics group. So that's why it sounds funny when I say:
I skipped my CG (civics grp) outing to go for my CG (connect grp) outing.
LOL.
My class went to watch Jumper, cos P.S. I Love You very few tickets left. Haiya.
Seems like Jumper isn't that nice too.
We're all deceived. >.<

You know what, I'm so relieved V Day is over. It was the day I was anticipating (both positively and negatively) for so long.

YES!!!
Two weeks are finally over!
There's service tomorrow! what I've been looking forward to for like 54698436173461 years. Okay la. It's only 2 weeks. =/
CNY seems so long..haiya.

I need Your anointing.

2008-02-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

I have 5 days. Before my parents come back from overseas.
I'm going to be a different person.
I will control my temper.
I will not argue with my parents even if they flare up at me for no reason.
I'm going to be will-led and not emotionally-led.
They are going to see a change in me.
I am not going to give in.

Watched Kungfu Dunk with Dong Ying, Yuan Ting and Yi Shu from TJC OG 06!
Not bad lehh the movie. Maybe not as funny as Ah Long Pte Ltd (which I watched with val & family ytd), but certainly had a better plot than the latter.
Before the movie, Dong Ying, Yuan Ting and I went walk walk and shop shop. =D
Bought hair clips & earrings. Spent approx. $20.
Movie spent $10.
Popcorn spent approx. $5.
Approx. Total : $35.
Initially had $50, become $15. SO SADDDD.
Hais. I must stop it. I'm becoming such a spendaholic.

Had a wonderful wonderful joint zone reunion dinner today.
Zone D & F totally rawk mann.
They're my 2 favourite zones. =D
The worship was awesome. God's presence was so strong. I could feel it so tangibly. (:
The whole games & lucky draw thingy was super fun and funny and scandalous. Hahaha.
The buffet was fabulous too! = lots lots food!!
Even if take food selectively, you will still somehow fill up your whole plate and find that you cannot finish the food. HAHA. But I kind of did.
The leaders were serving the food to the people lah so funny. Hahaha. Dominic was like "Come let me help you take." with a huge grin on his face. hahahaha.
These are the games:
Charades (zone D vs zone F)
Do You Know Your Leader?
Orange Eating Competition.
We discovered Wen Qian to be an orange-eating pro. She like can eat 8 oranges at one go? That's really pro la. And just look at her eat. It's funny.
Hahahhaha.
The whole room was just chaotic laughter. =P

After dinner, we were just hanging around. And then Lambert pushed me and Pei Fen around the auditorium ON A GARUNG GUNI PUSH-TROLLEY. Can you imagine?! It's really very funny HAHAHA. Okay nvm if you're not laughing. (:

The MOST FUN PART was the gaming session our CG had after the whole dinner ended. You see, we couldnt bear to go home so early so we all stayed to play!!
First we played the Do You Like Your Neighbour Game for which I explained the rules. It turned out to be superly laughy cos some of us were really blur during the game. Hahhaha.
And then Jieru, Joanne and Cheryl Chan joined us for the next game - Cut and Run Game. HAHAHA. Pei Fen explained the rules for this game. SO FUNNY! When Selwyn tried to cut apart Jieru and Joanne, they were like, "I'm sorry, cannot cut, we're unbreakable." Hahahahhahaha. And then many people run until pants want to drop. Including me. LOLs. And it was funny seeing people snatching to grab each other's hands. The whole game was SUPERSUPERSUPER LAUGHY CAN. We laugh until.. Haha, just know that it was complete madness lah. Sorry I very high now. =D

Ai Li is beside me now. She made me type this. Hahah!!

Worship is not a slow song. It is a life of obedience.

2008-02-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

I didn't know it would take so much pains just to get that $2000.
AHHHH.
I'm talking about the DSTA scholarship Miss Li told me I was eligible for.
I think I'm so suaku. HAHA.
I thought all I had to do was to go to the website, enter a few particulars, and then, whoa-lah, I'm done. And I thought I could get the whole $2000 scholarship like within these few months.

BUT.

Firstly. I only will receive $1000. IF my application is successful.
But I need to have outstanding promo results before they will give the other $1000. Haaa..

Secondly. There's truckloads of particulars to fill in! It's like totally, tiring. LOL. I won't mind if they were easy to fill in.
But you know.
I have to fill in stuff like what university course I intend to take, WHICH I DON'T KNOW YET. Hahaha. So I just put medicine.
In addition, I have to do an essay question they provided in the application form. -.-
Eh come on, as if O levels wasn't enough. Lol.
And they put a footnote there, saying : not more than 500 words.
OHMY.
That means you expect me to write like 300-400 words.
Lol.

Thirdly. I think even after submitting application, we will still be called for interview. Arghs.

I feel very tempted to just give up applying for this thing.
BUT IT'S $2000!!!
zzZ! :(

Okay lah. I know I know. They also want the best people for their scholarship mah. They want to sift out those who enter the particulars in a slip-shod manner, those who don't take the scholarship seriously. Who cares if you got good results anyway right. You gotta have character. And show that you really want it. You really really want the scholarship.

I think they smart loh. Make people go through troubles to even apply. It doesn't even guarantee the scholarship. Ha. This way then they'll be able to tell the best from the worse.

Haha. I think I very suaku. I never apply for scholarship before.
Didn't know it was gonna be so troublesome.
Sigh.
Haha.
Okay.
I ranted.
I think I'm just gonna do it anyway. :/

School was quite waste time. Haha.
The J2s having roadrun on the school track. Then the J1s cheering them on (supposedly) from the spectator's seats. But my clique ended up having picnic down there.
Yeah *picnic* with CNY goodies. HAHAH. It's super funnn.
Joanne didn't come to school cos she went to Malaysia with her family. I think she got reunion dinner there or sth. Quite cool huh.
After school, I went for lunch with some class people. Ying Loo, Felise, Siew Chi, Bryan and Benjamin.
Went shopping at Bugis with Ying Loo and Siew Chi. Woahh.
Bought:
Sparkly slippers at $16.90.
Light grey short dress at $10.
White shirt at $10.
The checkered collared shirts are only selling at $22! Quite cheap compared to department store or shopping mall shops. Haha. I'll save up.

Reunion dinner was.. not really unusual in any way. :)
Don't have to say much.

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live, a child in awe of You